Just thinking about some things...
There's love... one could say they love somebody but unless it's shown & tested what does it really mean? The Bible gives a the true definition of the word in "the love chapter". One could say they have feelings of love, but those might just be warm feelings of some sort without real love ever making itself manifest.Ones own inner feelings are no proof of love.
I had realized a few weeks ago, hey this person I was wondering about stopped caring about me (which seemed to be love through past expressioin/behavior) about the time I got saved. Their behavior & attitude towards me totally changed. I would have to face the fact the truth is after this point they didn't care about me anymore.
Then in trying to break things down (in my mind) and pick them a part, I was thinking about interest.
I guess I could say I've given up being interested in them, meaning why should I be interested in being their friend when it's apparent that they have no such interest in me. As I had recently written, why be interested in a goal one cannot reach- attention is better spent elsewhere on something productive. So I guess the phrase "to be interested" (in someone) implies interested in some end result, working towards whatever result.
Then I picked it a part some more and realized...though I am not interested anymore in trying to be their friend- I must admit they still have my interest.
This doesn't have to be one and the same. One can still find someone interesting and that person could have their interest even if there is no real relationship or hope of one. For example, many people find Sara Palin interesting (even some of her enemies), they take interest in her even though they have no relationship with her and realize they won't.
The same could apply to whichever famous people. You read about them, watch their interviews, are curious about what they have to say on whichever topic, etc.
So why is this? Who are these people that we should care about their lives & what they have to say, even though we have no relationship with them.
I used to be like that, especially having to do with famous musicians. Like I was all interested in their lives and what they had to say, even on the most trivial or the most serious of matters- of which they probably made no sense on anyway..
Now I'm not the same anymore. I still like a lot of bands and musicians but I'm not into hearing about the details of their lives and their opinons on everything.
Yet here I am, I admit I still find a certain person interesting, this person still has my interest (in spite of my giving up being interestED in their friendship). I did read their little personal trivia (quizzes) and all, still am interested to hear what's going on with them (even if like from afar, like reading some article).The funny thing is I have no clue why. Even when I disagree with whatever, don't like something, can't understand something, even if it reminds me of things that would be more comfortable for me to forget/or not know- they still have my interest.
At this point, even if it makes no sense to me, and I cannot understand myself, & why. There it is.
There's love... one could say they love somebody but unless it's shown & tested what does it really mean? The Bible gives a the true definition of the word in "the love chapter". One could say they have feelings of love, but those might just be warm feelings of some sort without real love ever making itself manifest.Ones own inner feelings are no proof of love.
I had realized a few weeks ago, hey this person I was wondering about stopped caring about me (which seemed to be love through past expressioin/behavior) about the time I got saved. Their behavior & attitude towards me totally changed. I would have to face the fact the truth is after this point they didn't care about me anymore.
Then in trying to break things down (in my mind) and pick them a part, I was thinking about interest.
I guess I could say I've given up being interested in them, meaning why should I be interested in being their friend when it's apparent that they have no such interest in me. As I had recently written, why be interested in a goal one cannot reach- attention is better spent elsewhere on something productive. So I guess the phrase "to be interested" (in someone) implies interested in some end result, working towards whatever result.
Then I picked it a part some more and realized...though I am not interested anymore in trying to be their friend- I must admit they still have my interest.
This doesn't have to be one and the same. One can still find someone interesting and that person could have their interest even if there is no real relationship or hope of one. For example, many people find Sara Palin interesting (even some of her enemies), they take interest in her even though they have no relationship with her and realize they won't.
The same could apply to whichever famous people. You read about them, watch their interviews, are curious about what they have to say on whichever topic, etc.
So why is this? Who are these people that we should care about their lives & what they have to say, even though we have no relationship with them.
I used to be like that, especially having to do with famous musicians. Like I was all interested in their lives and what they had to say, even on the most trivial or the most serious of matters- of which they probably made no sense on anyway..
Now I'm not the same anymore. I still like a lot of bands and musicians but I'm not into hearing about the details of their lives and their opinons on everything.
Yet here I am, I admit I still find a certain person interesting, this person still has my interest (in spite of my giving up being interestED in their friendship). I did read their little personal trivia (quizzes) and all, still am interested to hear what's going on with them (even if like from afar, like reading some article).The funny thing is I have no clue why. Even when I disagree with whatever, don't like something, can't understand something, even if it reminds me of things that would be more comfortable for me to forget/or not know- they still have my interest.
At this point, even if it makes no sense to me, and I cannot understand myself, & why. There it is.