That mood icon really describes it this time.
I knew it was a swirling tornado...
As they say when it rains it pours- I've found that often applies in a good sense as well. If things are going one way there's often momentum in that direction.
I'm really sweating now- literally. That may be gross, but a lot of interaction w people can really make me sweat (not even if like if I'm being active, I could be on the phone or writing).
Let's see: my new good friend is about ready to go in labor in a few hrs. & her son is with my son- in another state.
I'm rushing last minute to try to get ready to drive out to another state, with another old good\best friend of mine- who I haven't really talked to in yeeears. And, lol I have no money (well at least not untill Fri.).
My son is out in another state possibly "running around" (and I use that not in the usual sense- but according to my standards) with this gal who came all the way from another state & side of the country. LOL and this is the gal that my son THINKS he wants to marry some day
And then there's my special friend (who's hardly ever more than a thought away) who appears to be letting me in on their world... like bait lol like a mouse out on a string...
So (these and a few other situations) I feel like my adrenaline is flowing in high gear!!!! That's enough to make one sweat, me at least.
Where to start (and stop lol)....
Well I'm happy I am going on the big trip. I call it that because it is THE big event for a lot of people we know (in our "circle"). I'm happy because a bunch of our friends from different churches & such are going to be there, inlcuding this one gal I met last yr. at the event- who I got on really well with.
I'm happy (really blessed-like satisfied etc.) that some young young people went out there with my kids. AH but that is a whole nother story & post.
Don't tell me I'm not like that girl (my new friend). I have soo been going back & forth about this trip. I was then I wasn't. Then I was concerned I wouldn't have any money left after Christmas to do it, then I I felt I just HAD to be there because they were supposed to be getting baptised out there, but then I heard the bad news they weren't going to do the baptisms this yr., so then I wasn't but then I got asked by T if I was going and if so & so could catch a ride w us. So then I was thinking for their sake I would because it would be good for them. Buut then I get the news after I tell T ok, that the person who was supposed to give the ride Thurs night was leaving yesterday during the day.Thanks for letting me know people. My son says he told my hubby, my hubby just sent me a txt saying "R U There"? what's that supposed to say? Like I'm supposed to think that's important (he send that all the time) He should have just left the message anyway, because as soon as I get up I check my txts. lol and so I wouldnt've told T ok. Soo I had put my foot in my mouth and was finding no way to undo it. I resolved I had to just call them and tell them I couldn't. I was going to offer that if they didn't have a car or something was wrong w it , that they could use ours.
I tried leaving a FB message, & nothing. I tried calling the # I had and some error message came up- something about the area code & all. To "do my part" and be able to slip out of talking to them, I tried calling 3 times-(both house & cell phone) same thing. What on earth came over me to try to text that same number ??? Like why would a text go through but not a call?Well however that works - it did. Hmm and they called me from that same #.. well I'm not going to think about that- I don't have room in my brain right now.
So they didn't seem to mind and quickly said they would take their car anyway and we could come with- just like that. They were laughing saying I sounded just the same ( hope that's a good thing?). So that's it- Lord willing we're heading out there later.
This mystery gal is just that, and an old good (maybe best) friend of mine. I know her from like 2 yr.s after we got married. She was connected to youth were working with hmm I'd say shes 5 or 6yrs younger than me...but I can't remember exactly (lol that has nothing to do w my age, I was never good at remembering numbers).
Anyway we became good friends, you could say close but in a deeply spiritual but not emotional way. We used to pray together & work in ministry together. And though she is a very caring kind person, and sensitive in a way (but also "tough" like me) but I think she has a gift of teaching so her emotions are more like in a dry analytical way.
I think the Lord kind of used me\my gifts to help direct\guide her into her calling\ministry- working w kids ( of which she started to tell me about, but I said to save it since we'll have about 8 hrs to talk- LOL and 12 yrs. to catch up on).
Great person, but she moved out to WA for ministry, and we just lost touch.
Though, I always had a special place in my heart for her, always proud to have had her as a friend (still considered her so after all the yrs.) SO I was happy & excited when she showed up on FB. But then I felt like my bubble burst. We connected but not really. I sent messages but she only gave back brief responses (with unanswered questions). I was hoping we would do a regular back & forth thing on FB (like me & J are) but it wasn't so. So then I assumed for her things were just cut off, dried up, the "past is the past" kind of thing. But then she writes this big grand warm message on my page. Like ok, maybe I'll try one more time. So I wrote her another message trying to get into details and connect up the friendship again. Oh but once again she was being all obscure ( if I didn't know her, one could say cold) and she just left it w her number and call me. I'm left thinking look if you don't or arent trying to connect w me here, how are we going to carry on a conversation on the phone??? I am just not a phone person, I hate "dead air" & uncomfortable moments- which are much more uncomfortable over the phone (than in writing or even in person).
So maybe it was like a stand off, although at the time I took it as something else. I don't like talking on the phone (except w a very few) and she doesn't like writing. I see now after talking w her today that's it- then she wrote back a fb message how good it was to literally "hear my voice" and how she can't wait to "see me in person" tomorrow.
I think eveything will be fine w this and we'll get to share stuff again. However , this isn't the total picture on my part of why I wasn't calling her. I was trying to avoid the whole topic of this certain church\ministry\ ministers, trying to avoid that from coming up. The thing is she is really into that which I can't stand. I think this group is leading people astray and these certain ministers there are being used (and not by God) to corrupt people- wolves in sheeps clothing.
I hadn't been just "annnoyed" or "bothered". I have been grieved-deeply, & it makes me mad. And I just haven't got why or how others have just gone along with their heresy... and then I find an old best friend of mine is part of "that" group? Does God have a sense of humor or what, mmm but this mostly isn't from God
UG in fact, when I was talking to them it just had to come up. I was asking about what kind of player they had in the car, like if I could bring cds or an sd card with music. Then they tell me they have an mp3 with music ( soaking hmmm) but worse of worse they tell me - happily, that they've got teaching messages from the 3 and the two which I think are horrible etc. and am praying about who I think are trying to turn people against the true prophetic, prophets, true evangelism & the true gospel.... and which has been a thorn in my own side and something grievious the cause for me to leave a church & people I was coming to love...and seperate me from other friends and brothers and sisters in the body grrr
oh but I digress.
Hmm I think it's time for a good slap in my face - ok I'm back now, down from the relationships cloud (as I'm switching hats).
"These people" are mocking the truth etc...
It's like I beleive, if someone goes off in their thinking, I believe its first because of something amiss in their soul. So what's going on deep down w my old friend that would make her cling to this? I think I faintly hear God saying for me to tread lightly but carefully- to not forget how serious this is, to not forget the battles I've been trying to fight in the spirit for the sake of my region & the body. Not to forget all that now, just because someone is an old friend. As always that shouldn't keep me from speaking the truth if need be, if I care about them. In fact, even more that I care for their soul, destiny and eternal life. Once again, "maybe for such a time"...
One would think people would seem to be on on same page, but it doesn't matter what they call themselves or what group they align with if they have opposing views on sin & the holiness of God they couldn't be further apart...denominations are splitting over this and there are different factions in each denomination even Lutheran & Catholic... God is seperating the wheat from the tares, everywhere...multitudes multitudes in the valley of decision. God is both love & truth. His justice includes love, but his love also includes justice\judgement.
It's so ironic to me that I've tried to walk away from this, almost like I said unspoken to God- "Ok God I'm done, I did my part, I've shed my tears- next." and didn't want to deal with any of it anymore. And, here now it's back in my face.
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I knew it was a swirling tornado...
As they say when it rains it pours- I've found that often applies in a good sense as well. If things are going one way there's often momentum in that direction.
I'm really sweating now- literally. That may be gross, but a lot of interaction w people can really make me sweat (not even if like if I'm being active, I could be on the phone or writing).
Let's see: my new good friend is about ready to go in labor in a few hrs. & her son is with my son- in another state.
I'm rushing last minute to try to get ready to drive out to another state, with another old good\best friend of mine- who I haven't really talked to in yeeears. And, lol I have no money (well at least not untill Fri.).
My son is out in another state possibly "running around" (and I use that not in the usual sense- but according to my standards) with this gal who came all the way from another state & side of the country. LOL and this is the gal that my son THINKS he wants to marry some day
And then there's my special friend (who's hardly ever more than a thought away) who appears to be letting me in on their world... like bait lol like a mouse out on a string...
So (these and a few other situations) I feel like my adrenaline is flowing in high gear!!!! That's enough to make one sweat, me at least.
Where to start (and stop lol)....
Well I'm happy I am going on the big trip. I call it that because it is THE big event for a lot of people we know (in our "circle"). I'm happy because a bunch of our friends from different churches & such are going to be there, inlcuding this one gal I met last yr. at the event- who I got on really well with.
I'm happy (really blessed-like satisfied etc.) that some young young people went out there with my kids. AH but that is a whole nother story & post.
Don't tell me I'm not like that girl (my new friend). I have soo been going back & forth about this trip. I was then I wasn't. Then I was concerned I wouldn't have any money left after Christmas to do it, then I I felt I just HAD to be there because they were supposed to be getting baptised out there, but then I heard the bad news they weren't going to do the baptisms this yr., so then I wasn't but then I got asked by T if I was going and if so & so could catch a ride w us. So then I was thinking for their sake I would because it would be good for them. Buut then I get the news after I tell T ok, that the person who was supposed to give the ride Thurs night was leaving yesterday during the day.Thanks for letting me know people. My son says he told my hubby, my hubby just sent me a txt saying "R U There"? what's that supposed to say? Like I'm supposed to think that's important (he send that all the time) He should have just left the message anyway, because as soon as I get up I check my txts. lol and so I wouldnt've told T ok. Soo I had put my foot in my mouth and was finding no way to undo it. I resolved I had to just call them and tell them I couldn't. I was going to offer that if they didn't have a car or something was wrong w it , that they could use ours.
I tried leaving a FB message, & nothing. I tried calling the # I had and some error message came up- something about the area code & all. To "do my part" and be able to slip out of talking to them, I tried calling 3 times-(both house & cell phone) same thing. What on earth came over me to try to text that same number ??? Like why would a text go through but not a call?Well however that works - it did. Hmm and they called me from that same #.. well I'm not going to think about that- I don't have room in my brain right now.
So they didn't seem to mind and quickly said they would take their car anyway and we could come with- just like that. They were laughing saying I sounded just the same ( hope that's a good thing?). So that's it- Lord willing we're heading out there later.
This mystery gal is just that, and an old good (maybe best) friend of mine. I know her from like 2 yr.s after we got married. She was connected to youth were working with hmm I'd say shes 5 or 6yrs younger than me...but I can't remember exactly (lol that has nothing to do w my age, I was never good at remembering numbers).
Anyway we became good friends, you could say close but in a deeply spiritual but not emotional way. We used to pray together & work in ministry together. And though she is a very caring kind person, and sensitive in a way (but also "tough" like me) but I think she has a gift of teaching so her emotions are more like in a dry analytical way.
I think the Lord kind of used me\my gifts to help direct\guide her into her calling\ministry- working w kids ( of which she started to tell me about, but I said to save it since we'll have about 8 hrs to talk- LOL and 12 yrs. to catch up on).
Great person, but she moved out to WA for ministry, and we just lost touch.
Though, I always had a special place in my heart for her, always proud to have had her as a friend (still considered her so after all the yrs.) SO I was happy & excited when she showed up on FB. But then I felt like my bubble burst. We connected but not really. I sent messages but she only gave back brief responses (with unanswered questions). I was hoping we would do a regular back & forth thing on FB (like me & J are) but it wasn't so. So then I assumed for her things were just cut off, dried up, the "past is the past" kind of thing. But then she writes this big grand warm message on my page. Like ok, maybe I'll try one more time. So I wrote her another message trying to get into details and connect up the friendship again. Oh but once again she was being all obscure ( if I didn't know her, one could say cold) and she just left it w her number and call me. I'm left thinking look if you don't or arent trying to connect w me here, how are we going to carry on a conversation on the phone??? I am just not a phone person, I hate "dead air" & uncomfortable moments- which are much more uncomfortable over the phone (than in writing or even in person).
So maybe it was like a stand off, although at the time I took it as something else. I don't like talking on the phone (except w a very few) and she doesn't like writing. I see now after talking w her today that's it- then she wrote back a fb message how good it was to literally "hear my voice" and how she can't wait to "see me in person" tomorrow.
I think eveything will be fine w this and we'll get to share stuff again. However , this isn't the total picture on my part of why I wasn't calling her. I was trying to avoid the whole topic of this certain church\ministry\ ministers, trying to avoid that from coming up. The thing is she is really into that which I can't stand. I think this group is leading people astray and these certain ministers there are being used (and not by God) to corrupt people- wolves in sheeps clothing.
I hadn't been just "annnoyed" or "bothered". I have been grieved-deeply, & it makes me mad. And I just haven't got why or how others have just gone along with their heresy... and then I find an old best friend of mine is part of "that" group? Does God have a sense of humor or what, mmm but this mostly isn't from God
UG in fact, when I was talking to them it just had to come up. I was asking about what kind of player they had in the car, like if I could bring cds or an sd card with music. Then they tell me they have an mp3 with music ( soaking hmmm) but worse of worse they tell me - happily, that they've got teaching messages from the 3 and the two which I think are horrible etc. and am praying about who I think are trying to turn people against the true prophetic, prophets, true evangelism & the true gospel.... and which has been a thorn in my own side and something grievious the cause for me to leave a church & people I was coming to love...and seperate me from other friends and brothers and sisters in the body grrr
oh but I digress.
Hmm I think it's time for a good slap in my face - ok I'm back now, down from the relationships cloud (as I'm switching hats).
"These people" are mocking the truth etc...
It's like I beleive, if someone goes off in their thinking, I believe its first because of something amiss in their soul. So what's going on deep down w my old friend that would make her cling to this? I think I faintly hear God saying for me to tread lightly but carefully- to not forget how serious this is, to not forget the battles I've been trying to fight in the spirit for the sake of my region & the body. Not to forget all that now, just because someone is an old friend. As always that shouldn't keep me from speaking the truth if need be, if I care about them. In fact, even more that I care for their soul, destiny and eternal life. Once again, "maybe for such a time"...
One would think people would seem to be on on same page, but it doesn't matter what they call themselves or what group they align with if they have opposing views on sin & the holiness of God they couldn't be further apart...denominations are splitting over this and there are different factions in each denomination even Lutheran & Catholic... God is seperating the wheat from the tares, everywhere...multitudes multitudes in the valley of decision. God is both love & truth. His justice includes love, but his love also includes justice\judgement.
It's so ironic to me that I've tried to walk away from this, almost like I said unspoken to God- "Ok God I'm done, I did my part, I've shed my tears- next." and didn't want to deal with any of it anymore. And, here now it's back in my face.
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