Why do some people have to be so cruel? Today a huge group of girls did something REALLY cruel to me. I don't want to talk about what exactly they did, but it just made me feel so horrible and helpless. I feel like I hate them. And the worst part is I know I could go back there and say and do things back, but I know the more I fight back the more I'll get hurt. But I want to SO BAD. And I know I can. I know I can do so so many things to really HURT them. But I can't. I'd just get even more hurt. But even though I know it would be wrong to act on this, all I can think about is REVENGE REVENGE REVENGE. And it would be SO easy to take it. UGH, I'm so humiliated. I can't STAND the thought of them laughing and feeling so superior. I just can't stop thinking about it. Gosh, this is REALLY teaching me about how hard it is to let go.
