I've reached a point in my life where I cannot seem to care very much about alot of things. I used to spend alot of time online, but of late, I just can't seem to be bothered with going to any of the forums that I normally go to. It is very bad, as I own one of them and I seem to have lost all interest in going there (which is so unfair to the couple of people that do post there).
I seem to feel really tired all the time and I have quite alot of stomach problems of late, too, and it just seems to be draining me totally. I know that it's not depression or anything like that, as I have had alot of experience of dealing with mental problems in the past with various family members and I know the warning signs and I don't feel depressed, just so, so tired.
I have also not been particularly Christian of late either, and have actually started to return to my Pagan way of thinking. I am so, so confused and don't know which way to turn spiritually. I have no-one that I can speak about this to (as none of my family care about religion of any kind) and I don't have a church that I attend, nor any Christian friends that are not online. I also have alot of Pagan friends that I speak to all the time (that I be-friended before I found Christ) and I feel guilty when I don't speak to them.
I feel torn and don't know which way to go for the best. Whenever I decide on a way forward I start to miss going the other way, so I stop and go that way only to turn and go back again a little while later!!! I feel like such a fool for most of the time.
The only time when I feel alright is when I don't think about religion at all, but I miss not having something in my life and then the whole thing starts all over again
I just wish that I could make a final decision about this and move forward, I would feel much better knowing that I have something in my life that will be with me and be able to comfort me in both good and bad times.
I seem to feel really tired all the time and I have quite alot of stomach problems of late, too, and it just seems to be draining me totally. I know that it's not depression or anything like that, as I have had alot of experience of dealing with mental problems in the past with various family members and I know the warning signs and I don't feel depressed, just so, so tired.
I have also not been particularly Christian of late either, and have actually started to return to my Pagan way of thinking. I am so, so confused and don't know which way to turn spiritually. I have no-one that I can speak about this to (as none of my family care about religion of any kind) and I don't have a church that I attend, nor any Christian friends that are not online. I also have alot of Pagan friends that I speak to all the time (that I be-friended before I found Christ) and I feel guilty when I don't speak to them.
I feel torn and don't know which way to go for the best. Whenever I decide on a way forward I start to miss going the other way, so I stop and go that way only to turn and go back again a little while later!!! I feel like such a fool for most of the time.
The only time when I feel alright is when I don't think about religion at all, but I miss not having something in my life and then the whole thing starts all over again
I just wish that I could make a final decision about this and move forward, I would feel much better knowing that I have something in my life that will be with me and be able to comfort me in both good and bad times.
