The Bear

I have this bear I think I've had since I was a baby or very, very small child. It has a wind-up thing that you turn and it plays music. I have tried to Shazam the song to identify it and got something weird looking it up.... But this bear used to always put me to sleep. I can think of it over and over I have played it so much in the past. Now I still like winding it up sometimes and playing the song, but it also kind of makes me think about my fears. Like what if on earth I listen to this peaceful song and I'm comforted on earth and burn. Never comforted by the song again but maybe thinking why did I let a tiny song make me think everything was okay? I wonder sometimes if in my heart I am still being tempted or deceived by the idea of living a life (not necessarily sin to the limit but happy) so good I wouldn't regret it no matter what. I recognise that this mindset is not good, but it's mostly a subconcious thing I think. I wish I had the peace where I could play that song and have no fear though, just be calm and know that I am safe.