Well it is now over a month. Wow does time on earth fly.
I spoke with a Christian counselor Wednesday. He was so encouraging, and I finally felt like I was OK after leaving there. I'm not feeling so guilty for being alright with her passing. All of those questions of why am I not MORE torn up about this, have pretty well been silenced. It is because I KNOW where she is, why she is HOME.
Simply, her work that God had planned for her is complete. I was given the greatest gift by our Father. He allowed me to hear from her how proud she was of me, and that she loved me. I got to tell her that I loved her back.
Then while at work God called her home. No frenzied hospital trip, no fight to save her mortal shell. No distress in her face, just a peaceful calling back to where she belongs.
That is why it is so much easier, I KNOW she is where she belongs. I trust God to do what is His will. I know I'll be beside her again praising our Lord together.
I also know that I am still here for I have more of His work to do...
Now if I only had that written down on one of those lists that Lib was so fond of, I'd be set!!
In His service,
J
I spoke with a Christian counselor Wednesday. He was so encouraging, and I finally felt like I was OK after leaving there. I'm not feeling so guilty for being alright with her passing. All of those questions of why am I not MORE torn up about this, have pretty well been silenced. It is because I KNOW where she is, why she is HOME.
Simply, her work that God had planned for her is complete. I was given the greatest gift by our Father. He allowed me to hear from her how proud she was of me, and that she loved me. I got to tell her that I loved her back.
Then while at work God called her home. No frenzied hospital trip, no fight to save her mortal shell. No distress in her face, just a peaceful calling back to where she belongs.
That is why it is so much easier, I KNOW she is where she belongs. I trust God to do what is His will. I know I'll be beside her again praising our Lord together.
I also know that I am still here for I have more of His work to do...
Now if I only had that written down on one of those lists that Lib was so fond of, I'd be set!!
In His service,
J