I thank GOD for my blog.. I can share what I feel when others might not understand..
I have felt for awhile I should delete a friend off face book.. Its weeird because I have only ever done that to one other person I think.. someone who was very harsh towards me and others who posted on my facebook..
This person I have been drawn too.. posting often on most everything they say.. they really helped me with the things they wrote and in the beginning they replied to most every post which is so unlike many.. something that drew me to them..
They said they believed in me.. and I think prayed for me and many times encouraged me..
I believe everyone is in our lives for a reason.. and sometimes people come and then they go.. sometimes they stay for a long time.. I had to pray about this.. but the more I think about it.. the more I sense this is what I should do.. as I pray I do not understand why.. deleting is just not my thing.. I tend to keep persisting with someone and stay loyal.. I did feel some rejection from this person.. and that they did not care as much as in the beginning and sometimes I struggled with things I wanted to write.. feeling I could not say what I wanted to this person at all times.. I felt that if they did not answer.. if was more a general reply not personal.. I think personal attention means a whole lot in this day and age..
Then a few times I wrote very personally to them as they came across as being there that way for anyone and most of them were not even answered.. that hurt.. so there has been some hurt involved.. but yet I kept being drawn to them..
So as time went on I have felt more and more that deleting them was the right thing because I believe to speak a message is to do as one says and this person says much but something is missing.. perhaps GOD is removing me so that they might see???
I never thought it could be GOD till something came up in a sermon about being obedient to GOD even when things seemed strage or you didn't understand and its like I immediately knew it was for me and that this is what I needed to do in this situation.. I want to be obedient to GOD rather then always appear to do the right thing or say the right thing or act the right way.. it is humbling and has been many times replying to this person who is so very talented and many times I more honest with this person that I wanted to be.. but you say what is on your heart.. that is what I was led to do with this person much of the time.. I was as honest as I could be which was strange.. this person drew out from me much that I did not reply to others.. often there was a timing with things I had posted and they had posted.. very amazing..
I left a small message just to say thank you for blessing my life and so forth before I deleted because they meant a lot to me even if they did not know just how much.. Its still so strange.. they have been a big part of my life for awhile.. but it also feels good to be obedient to what I believe GOD wants me to do.. not sure if they will notice I am gone maybe not straight away but over a long period of time I have regularly commented so they would eventually realize.. not sure what might happen if they ask why.. I guess I can only tell them that I believed GOD wanted me to do that.. and ask the LORD what to say if it went further then that.. it never has before..
In the past.. I did actually tell them at times I have struggled to stay friends.. that I wanted to delete them from my friends list awhile back.. so they might remember that.. I don't understand.. but I know if we do what GOD wants.. and if this is GOD led.. it will work out for good.. and there will be a reason for it..
I must admit there is a certain sense of encouragement to my soul/spirit when you think.. this may well have been GOD prompting me for awhile and I finally see.. and it will be interesting to see what comes of it..
I have long realized GOD led me to this person..I see everything in my life as GOD led.. but I see many times when I had something to say to this person.. they did not take it.. accept it.. sometimes.. and I never do it for reply but you know there is a wonderful fellowship believers share as they give and take with one another.. and always did I encourage and be there to support and pray.. so I know before GOD I have done as HE desired.. I thanked them muchly.. encouraged them muchly.. praised GOD openly muchly on their profile and said very personal sharing there.. but not always could I give or feel I was being received.. anyway this probably doesn't make sense.. lol... to anyone else... but I had to let it out.. maybe a couple of years.. or at least one I have known them... they are very talented writing beautifully.. they have much gifts.. I believe if they get it.. realizing sometimes that each person is there because of GOD and go with that.. and flow with that.. they will boom in their ministry.. and things will rapidly change for them..
I have felt for awhile I should delete a friend off face book.. Its weeird because I have only ever done that to one other person I think.. someone who was very harsh towards me and others who posted on my facebook..
This person I have been drawn too.. posting often on most everything they say.. they really helped me with the things they wrote and in the beginning they replied to most every post which is so unlike many.. something that drew me to them..
They said they believed in me.. and I think prayed for me and many times encouraged me..
I believe everyone is in our lives for a reason.. and sometimes people come and then they go.. sometimes they stay for a long time.. I had to pray about this.. but the more I think about it.. the more I sense this is what I should do.. as I pray I do not understand why.. deleting is just not my thing.. I tend to keep persisting with someone and stay loyal.. I did feel some rejection from this person.. and that they did not care as much as in the beginning and sometimes I struggled with things I wanted to write.. feeling I could not say what I wanted to this person at all times.. I felt that if they did not answer.. if was more a general reply not personal.. I think personal attention means a whole lot in this day and age..
Then a few times I wrote very personally to them as they came across as being there that way for anyone and most of them were not even answered.. that hurt.. so there has been some hurt involved.. but yet I kept being drawn to them..
So as time went on I have felt more and more that deleting them was the right thing because I believe to speak a message is to do as one says and this person says much but something is missing.. perhaps GOD is removing me so that they might see???
I never thought it could be GOD till something came up in a sermon about being obedient to GOD even when things seemed strage or you didn't understand and its like I immediately knew it was for me and that this is what I needed to do in this situation.. I want to be obedient to GOD rather then always appear to do the right thing or say the right thing or act the right way.. it is humbling and has been many times replying to this person who is so very talented and many times I more honest with this person that I wanted to be.. but you say what is on your heart.. that is what I was led to do with this person much of the time.. I was as honest as I could be which was strange.. this person drew out from me much that I did not reply to others.. often there was a timing with things I had posted and they had posted.. very amazing..
I left a small message just to say thank you for blessing my life and so forth before I deleted because they meant a lot to me even if they did not know just how much.. Its still so strange.. they have been a big part of my life for awhile.. but it also feels good to be obedient to what I believe GOD wants me to do.. not sure if they will notice I am gone maybe not straight away but over a long period of time I have regularly commented so they would eventually realize.. not sure what might happen if they ask why.. I guess I can only tell them that I believed GOD wanted me to do that.. and ask the LORD what to say if it went further then that.. it never has before..
In the past.. I did actually tell them at times I have struggled to stay friends.. that I wanted to delete them from my friends list awhile back.. so they might remember that.. I don't understand.. but I know if we do what GOD wants.. and if this is GOD led.. it will work out for good.. and there will be a reason for it..
I must admit there is a certain sense of encouragement to my soul/spirit when you think.. this may well have been GOD prompting me for awhile and I finally see.. and it will be interesting to see what comes of it..
I have long realized GOD led me to this person..I see everything in my life as GOD led.. but I see many times when I had something to say to this person.. they did not take it.. accept it.. sometimes.. and I never do it for reply but you know there is a wonderful fellowship believers share as they give and take with one another.. and always did I encourage and be there to support and pray.. so I know before GOD I have done as HE desired.. I thanked them muchly.. encouraged them muchly.. praised GOD openly muchly on their profile and said very personal sharing there.. but not always could I give or feel I was being received.. anyway this probably doesn't make sense.. lol... to anyone else... but I had to let it out.. maybe a couple of years.. or at least one I have known them... they are very talented writing beautifully.. they have much gifts.. I believe if they get it.. realizing sometimes that each person is there because of GOD and go with that.. and flow with that.. they will boom in their ministry.. and things will rapidly change for them..
