Happy, but not totally...
Would like to have posted differently, but on mobile only certain options are available.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2Qnck1lFwjs
I'll try to be patient but it's not fair being so stuck, waiting... don't know what exactly i am waiting on/for.
So I'm still on the rollar coaster...
since I don't like feeling like this. Hmmm (trying to figure this out with only half a brain right now)
Ok I like to get what I want, I usually plan on getting (eventually) what I want. If not that must mean I don't want it. Either I plan on getting that which I want or if that's not the case it's because I don't want it/care.
So I don't like feeling this way, and doubting & not being able to do anything about it. And if I believe things aren't going to move to a normal point... then I guess what's the point of feeling, what's the point of wanting? I need to pray and look for something more attainable.
Not that I stop caring, but rather cut out the part that makes me too sensitive to deem something ( like a relationship) too important- which affects me with too strong emotions. Frustration isn't a pleasant feeling (to say the least) and one that can only be relieved by attainment (and to a good degree by hope of attainment) or through divesting interest (switching interest elsewhere).
Love this video, so accurately portrays (among toher things) how it is to have your own feelings chasing after you, wrestling with yourself (your own feelings). Like you sense something there, some old feelings that came out from behind the shadows...running to try to get away.. all out assualt & wrestling- then either they kill you (your inner life) or you kill them...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZiLwrFI5Fv8
Was going to put up the "New Years Day" remix in celebration of the season- "Happy Happy"...
Instead I'll post like my 3rd fave U2 song ("If I'm A FOol for you, now theres something"):
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SyAcv9N7OkU
I have a good memory for some things, someone elses fave from back in the day...I remember...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w2Si1zhwRSI
Would like to have posted differently, but on mobile only certain options are available.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2Qnck1lFwjs
I'll try to be patient but it's not fair being so stuck, waiting... don't know what exactly i am waiting on/for.
So I'm still on the rollar coaster...
since I don't like feeling like this. Hmmm (trying to figure this out with only half a brain right now)
Ok I like to get what I want, I usually plan on getting (eventually) what I want. If not that must mean I don't want it. Either I plan on getting that which I want or if that's not the case it's because I don't want it/care.
So I don't like feeling this way, and doubting & not being able to do anything about it. And if I believe things aren't going to move to a normal point... then I guess what's the point of feeling, what's the point of wanting? I need to pray and look for something more attainable.
Not that I stop caring, but rather cut out the part that makes me too sensitive to deem something ( like a relationship) too important- which affects me with too strong emotions. Frustration isn't a pleasant feeling (to say the least) and one that can only be relieved by attainment (and to a good degree by hope of attainment) or through divesting interest (switching interest elsewhere).
Love this video, so accurately portrays (among toher things) how it is to have your own feelings chasing after you, wrestling with yourself (your own feelings). Like you sense something there, some old feelings that came out from behind the shadows...running to try to get away.. all out assualt & wrestling- then either they kill you (your inner life) or you kill them...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZiLwrFI5Fv8
Was going to put up the "New Years Day" remix in celebration of the season- "Happy Happy"...
Instead I'll post like my 3rd fave U2 song ("If I'm A FOol for you, now theres something"):
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SyAcv9N7OkU
I have a good memory for some things, someone elses fave from back in the day...I remember...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w2Si1zhwRSI
