Soft Days

Today was a soft day. I had a quiet day. I was with my mom and did some chores in my room. I took a long nap today and read. It soothed me. I was thinking about the beauty of Christ and how gentle and kind he is. The Lord had me think about how soft and gentle He is and that He loves me deeply. The Lord had me mediate in my heart on a beautiful church in Heaven where me and Caleb will go to church when we pass. I imagine the church to be very beautiful and to have stain glass windows telling the story of the beauty of the earth. The Lord told my heart that even though I was violated very much by my torture that the Lord was protecting me and that I am very precious and beautiful. Today I thought of the cruelty of my torturers and their hatred towards me. The Lord told me that I am a beautiful soul and that the torturers were very hateful that I was a healer in my heart and liked to heal other people who were hurting. The Lord told my soul my torturers did not love me and did not care about me. The Lord told my soul that my torturers were cruel and deceptive and manipulative. The Lord told my soul that my torturers harmed me because they were against Christ and His healing of the earth. The Lord told my soul that the torturers were against the beauty of Christ and His healing of the world through His children. The Lord told my soul that the torturers were very evil and that they did not love me and that they hated me and that they hated my beautiful soul. The Lord told my soul that they both hated women and hated the vulnerability and softness of women. The Lord told my soul that the torturers were very cruel and that they did not want me to know I was a beautiful soul. The Lord told me my soul that my torturers were against the healing of the earth and against Christians- healers. The Lord told me that I was too precious and gentle and soft to be harmed by my torturers. The Lord showed my heart a soothing image of myself as a torture victim. The image was of me with my hair half up and half down which is my favorite style for my hair and wearing a long cotton purple dress like I will wear in Heaven. The image soothed my soul and made me feel how beautiful God finds me. The Lord told my soul that in Heaven women will wear long simple cotton dresses to show their femininity. The Lord told my soul that He understands my pain and that each day He will comfort me and protect me. The Lord told me that He protects me each day from evil and that He comforts me. The Lord told my soul that He is holding me and Caleb each day in His arms.