Every good gift and healing is from Jesus our Lord.I know that Jesus loves us and keeps us in His hand when we go through trials or floods.When we are suffering like Job or Jeremiah the prophet and when we are in the valley or on the mountain top.Thankyou to all who have been keeping my family and I in prayer.
I am still overcoming depression and ptsd, I went through extreme abuse as a child.
The stress of religious ocd was quite literally killing me.It went on so unbearable for so long,I cannot begin to describe the terror and horror and anguish.
My health began giving out.I have been through surgeries and getting tumours removed,
I still have to get tumours removed from my thyroid,
also my thyroid is enlarged and at least the left side must be removed.Hopefully they can save the right side of my thyroid.
This is coming up after just having undergone a big surgery in February,
I am tired of all the doctors and being sick, and weak and in pain.I have lost so much weight.
I have been on extremely potent anitbiotics too much this year for infections on my lungs(coughing blood), stomach and other areas,
Even IV antibiotics as well because some infections were so bad.
Also I have been prescribed prednisone as well.
I have had to be admitted and treated for dehydration as well.
My liver became enlarged, my adrenal gland has a mass on it,my kidney is scarred and shrunken.
I developed esophagitis, and other throat conditions.
I have had sore throat and thrush for most of this year,thrush in my mouth despite repeated treatments with nystatin at 4 times the regular dose and other medications for it.
I have been unable to swallow solids for a year now.
The tumours on my thyroid are large especially one of them (5.5 cm) it is bulging from my throat and have displaced my esoghagus.I have spent the year wondering if I would live or die.I have taken so much medication, that I had to crush much of it because of my throat and water it down with coffee, or apple juice.
I have been on much prescription pain killers this year as well.
I know that we suffer at times in life.Yet Jesus gives us comfort and strength and healing through it all.He leads us beside still waters and gives us peace and joy and calms our storms.
Yet amazing I am here and alive and more amazing still is how much less pain I am in and how much stronger I have become, So am hoping Jesus still wants me here(I am sure He does).Maybe in the last year though it has been hard and painful, yet still it does not compare to the anguish the ocd put me through at all, not even remotely anywhere close to it.
Jesus has been healing my body gradually , as well as the unrelenting terror lifting is allowing my body to begin to heal as well as all the people praying for my health and I know Jesus is working on my health.
The specialist told me the operation on my throat could cause voice problems and many other risks, yet I know I am in Jesus hand, and He will be with me through out the operation and guiding the doctors hand.
I know Jesus uses doctors and medicine for our healing too.
Many people turned against me during the terror I had after my parents died.I was so very broken and pathetic, many people turned to despise me.Not my children though, they were confused and baffled since I had always taught them to keep strong faith in Jesus, I am sure they could not understand what happenmed to me(neither could I ).They had seen me have depression and some nervous breakdowns, but this ruined me almost entirely.
My children are my huge blessing in life.They never cease to bring me incredible joy .They are so precious and so tender.They make me so very very proud.I could not have received a bigger blessing in my life if I searched the world over, next to Jesus ofcourse.They are the most special gift from Jesus.What a priviledge to have them.
But I know Jesus loves us and uses us in good times and bad and when going through trials and when we are not,
We are always blessed and loved and protected and in His hand and have always the hope of glory and the knowledge of Jesus our Saviour and our forgiveness through His blood.
God is continuing to bless my husband and I when we come and when we go, when we get up and when we sleep, as well as our whole family.We are growing in Jesus, learning more and more and leaning on Jesus more and more,
I am so very very greatful that God brought my husband and I together , to love each other and grow together in Jesus and learn from each other.We are so very blessed to have each other.
My family and I have been more blessed this year than ever.
I love Jesus, my Saviour, my Lord , my Master,my Redeemer, my Counsellor,my Comforter,my God.
I am still overcoming depression and ptsd, I went through extreme abuse as a child.
The stress of religious ocd was quite literally killing me.It went on so unbearable for so long,I cannot begin to describe the terror and horror and anguish.
My health began giving out.I have been through surgeries and getting tumours removed,
I still have to get tumours removed from my thyroid,
also my thyroid is enlarged and at least the left side must be removed.Hopefully they can save the right side of my thyroid.
This is coming up after just having undergone a big surgery in February,
I am tired of all the doctors and being sick, and weak and in pain.I have lost so much weight.
I have been on extremely potent anitbiotics too much this year for infections on my lungs(coughing blood), stomach and other areas,
Even IV antibiotics as well because some infections were so bad.
Also I have been prescribed prednisone as well.
I have had to be admitted and treated for dehydration as well.
My liver became enlarged, my adrenal gland has a mass on it,my kidney is scarred and shrunken.
I developed esophagitis, and other throat conditions.
I have had sore throat and thrush for most of this year,thrush in my mouth despite repeated treatments with nystatin at 4 times the regular dose and other medications for it.
I have been unable to swallow solids for a year now.
The tumours on my thyroid are large especially one of them (5.5 cm) it is bulging from my throat and have displaced my esoghagus.I have spent the year wondering if I would live or die.I have taken so much medication, that I had to crush much of it because of my throat and water it down with coffee, or apple juice.
I have been on much prescription pain killers this year as well.
I know that we suffer at times in life.Yet Jesus gives us comfort and strength and healing through it all.He leads us beside still waters and gives us peace and joy and calms our storms.
Yet amazing I am here and alive and more amazing still is how much less pain I am in and how much stronger I have become, So am hoping Jesus still wants me here(I am sure He does).Maybe in the last year though it has been hard and painful, yet still it does not compare to the anguish the ocd put me through at all, not even remotely anywhere close to it.
Jesus has been healing my body gradually , as well as the unrelenting terror lifting is allowing my body to begin to heal as well as all the people praying for my health and I know Jesus is working on my health.
The specialist told me the operation on my throat could cause voice problems and many other risks, yet I know I am in Jesus hand, and He will be with me through out the operation and guiding the doctors hand.
I know Jesus uses doctors and medicine for our healing too.
Many people turned against me during the terror I had after my parents died.I was so very broken and pathetic, many people turned to despise me.Not my children though, they were confused and baffled since I had always taught them to keep strong faith in Jesus, I am sure they could not understand what happenmed to me(neither could I ).They had seen me have depression and some nervous breakdowns, but this ruined me almost entirely.
My children are my huge blessing in life.They never cease to bring me incredible joy .They are so precious and so tender.They make me so very very proud.I could not have received a bigger blessing in my life if I searched the world over, next to Jesus ofcourse.They are the most special gift from Jesus.What a priviledge to have them.
But I know Jesus loves us and uses us in good times and bad and when going through trials and when we are not,
We are always blessed and loved and protected and in His hand and have always the hope of glory and the knowledge of Jesus our Saviour and our forgiveness through His blood.
God is continuing to bless my husband and I when we come and when we go, when we get up and when we sleep, as well as our whole family.We are growing in Jesus, learning more and more and leaning on Jesus more and more,
I am so very very greatful that God brought my husband and I together , to love each other and grow together in Jesus and learn from each other.We are so very blessed to have each other.
My family and I have been more blessed this year than ever.
I love Jesus, my Saviour, my Lord , my Master,my Redeemer, my Counsellor,my Comforter,my God.