It is the morning of October 4th, the beginning of one of my favorite months of the year...and hated. It seems like so much in my life happens in October and I just love it all around. This is the month that the fall colors really begin to show (if I lived in Michigan). The reds, oranges and yellows that brighten up the horizon. It really sucks that I'm going to miss fall this year. But one of the many ways I connect with God is through nature. I am always in awe at His creation and I love going for walks in the fall, seeing the colors, enjoying the cooler temperatures and talking to God about whatever was on my mind.
Something new I get to celebrate this October is the one-mark month together with my amazing and beautiful girlfriend. Today, actually, is the one month mark and though it may not seem like a big marker for many people, it is to me. The past month was so wonderful I can't even begin to describe it with words. Being a man who has never dated, never been in a relationship, I've waited a long time to be in one. I'm 24-years-old and I was fervently praying to God about sending me someone special. And one day I just ventured into the CB and there she was. I almost knew from that point that greeny was special...how special I didn't know. The relationship it self has been instrumental for a lot of healing and just changing the way I see my life as a whole. I wrote a blog not too long ago about a green vine poking out of a world of destruction. She has been that green vine; a sign of new life and she has played a major role. I have had a lot of insecurities and pain about myself, but she has laid them aside and loves me anyway. It's because of her that I think better about myself and I now strive to be a better person. Thank you, greeny, for making me a better man. The world can crash, love can take it. Faith can bring a way to the impossible. I love you baby
This October also marks the two-year anniversary of my dad's death. Halloween day to be exact. This year has brought about a lot of pain, misery and healing. Finally I have left all the stages of grief and entered into acceptance. This is a good place to be. I am finding myself reenter the world where as before I didn't want to do anything but just curl up into a little ball on my bed and just cry. I couldn't go to church because large crowds scared me...which totally wasn't me. I love church and crowds of people, especially when they're worshipping our Christ! Now that I'm in the acceptance stage, massive amounts of healing have been done and I am becoming myself again. So this month I'm not going to mark the anniversary of a death, but the beginning of a new life with a special person by my side.
Something new I get to celebrate this October is the one-mark month together with my amazing and beautiful girlfriend. Today, actually, is the one month mark and though it may not seem like a big marker for many people, it is to me. The past month was so wonderful I can't even begin to describe it with words. Being a man who has never dated, never been in a relationship, I've waited a long time to be in one. I'm 24-years-old and I was fervently praying to God about sending me someone special. And one day I just ventured into the CB and there she was. I almost knew from that point that greeny was special...how special I didn't know. The relationship it self has been instrumental for a lot of healing and just changing the way I see my life as a whole. I wrote a blog not too long ago about a green vine poking out of a world of destruction. She has been that green vine; a sign of new life and she has played a major role. I have had a lot of insecurities and pain about myself, but she has laid them aside and loves me anyway. It's because of her that I think better about myself and I now strive to be a better person. Thank you, greeny, for making me a better man. The world can crash, love can take it. Faith can bring a way to the impossible. I love you baby
This October also marks the two-year anniversary of my dad's death. Halloween day to be exact. This year has brought about a lot of pain, misery and healing. Finally I have left all the stages of grief and entered into acceptance. This is a good place to be. I am finding myself reenter the world where as before I didn't want to do anything but just curl up into a little ball on my bed and just cry. I couldn't go to church because large crowds scared me...which totally wasn't me. I love church and crowds of people, especially when they're worshipping our Christ! Now that I'm in the acceptance stage, massive amounts of healing have been done and I am becoming myself again. So this month I'm not going to mark the anniversary of a death, but the beginning of a new life with a special person by my side.