Uh I guess I shouldn't be here right now...but here I am.
Was just thinking tho I'm not so weak w the boundries where I just jump all the way into something (or lay everything out on the table so quick).
I do "appreciate" that in others... it appeases my impaitence. No I still don't like waiting, hmm can I wait for anything?- well if I have no other choice- but don't like it.
I'm already thinking well if this doesn't work out (meaning continue on) I'll go back to my little box and pray some more.
I'm thinking about the more I get the more I want, more meaning ok if things do move on I will be at peace but not satisfied. It's a combo: part how God made me/whatever gifts, part human nature, part holdover from the worst of my flesh.
But I don't dump whoever and move on... the more I get the more it stirs my interest in people (part of the human nature of intertia-which is very strong in me) not consecutively but concurrently.
Like then I feel more outgoing & confident and I'm like God see I can do this (with His grace)- so then the more I want to look out for more people/mentor/mother/pastoral-whatever....reminds me how much I miss youth ministry and wish again I could've/could be in full time ministry....
Then opposite is also true, the more I'm on my own (not really connected or deeply interacting) the more I feel like being on my own, the less interested I am in relationships- more interested in my own goals...
well whatever happens I gotta figure out what I'm/we're going to do/go tomorrow...
One can kind of get worked up into a frenzy or in the Lord, stirred up for good works...
"All the world becomes a stage" or you wake up to the fact that there are a lot people "out there" in need and maybe just maybe one can contribute something that will make a difference...
"Alive & wanting more...dont let me suffocate"
YouTube - Andy Hunter - To Life, To Love
Was just thinking tho I'm not so weak w the boundries where I just jump all the way into something (or lay everything out on the table so quick).
I do "appreciate" that in others... it appeases my impaitence. No I still don't like waiting, hmm can I wait for anything?- well if I have no other choice- but don't like it.
I'm already thinking well if this doesn't work out (meaning continue on) I'll go back to my little box and pray some more.
I'm thinking about the more I get the more I want, more meaning ok if things do move on I will be at peace but not satisfied. It's a combo: part how God made me/whatever gifts, part human nature, part holdover from the worst of my flesh.
But I don't dump whoever and move on... the more I get the more it stirs my interest in people (part of the human nature of intertia-which is very strong in me) not consecutively but concurrently.
Like then I feel more outgoing & confident and I'm like God see I can do this (with His grace)- so then the more I want to look out for more people/mentor/mother/pastoral-whatever....reminds me how much I miss youth ministry and wish again I could've/could be in full time ministry....
Then opposite is also true, the more I'm on my own (not really connected or deeply interacting) the more I feel like being on my own, the less interested I am in relationships- more interested in my own goals...
well whatever happens I gotta figure out what I'm/we're going to do/go tomorrow...
One can kind of get worked up into a frenzy or in the Lord, stirred up for good works...
"All the world becomes a stage" or you wake up to the fact that there are a lot people "out there" in need and maybe just maybe one can contribute something that will make a difference...
"Alive & wanting more...dont let me suffocate"
YouTube - Andy Hunter - To Life, To Love