Happy Thanksgiving!
Anyway, I still feel like I'm going to hell soon. I know I've predicted it before and it didn't come true, but this time I really believe it. I just think everything is going to go wrong. The voice in my head is laughing at me all day long. I just keep thinking I'm too horrible a person. I really feel lousy all the time. The voices I hear are constantly messing with my head. They pretend like they are my friends, but really they hate me and want to lead me astray.
I really should have never gone back to school. I made bets in my head with Jesus that I would have to go to hell if I get certain grades. It was really stupid of me to go back to school. Well, now I'm supposed to graduate in a few weeks, but I'm really miserable. I think I'm going to get a certain grade and then I will just be teleported to hell. God showed me things that got teleported before, so I know he can do it.
God has set up everything for me to go to hell. Everything is against me. I've been having so many problems and I know God hates me even though everyone says he loves me. I just think if people knew all the things I did wrong they would hate me just like God. I'm really upset with everyone I know. I feel like if they loved me they could help me, but nobody can help me.
I'm going to try to read over all the nice messages people have left me. It helps to remember all the good advice I've been given. My loved ones can't take my fits of anger. My mom usually cries when I try to talk to her about how I'm going to hell. I just want her help, but nothing she says can help me. She tells me God loves me and Jesus is all about love, but I keep telling her I'm just too bad. She says that I'm really good deep down, but if I was really good why would I constantly think I'm going to hell? If I was really good, why would I hear voices condemning me all day long every day? My mom says it's just an illness. My mom says I have a chemical imbalance in my brain. I keep telling her that it's the devil, and he's laughing at me because he knows I'm going to hell and there is nothing I can do.
Thank you to everyone who has given me some kind words. They do help me, but I usually forget them soon after I get them. The voices I hear in my head are too powerful. They laugh at me all day long and tell me no matter what I do I'm going to hell. They say that whatever I do will be a mistake and I'm going to hell and there is nothing anyone can do to save me. I believe in Jesus and God and the Holy Spirit, but I feel like I did too much wrong. I feel like they are on the side of the voices. If God was on my side, why would he let me hear them laughing at me all day long?
Anyway, thank you for reading,
SnowTiger
Anyway, I still feel like I'm going to hell soon. I know I've predicted it before and it didn't come true, but this time I really believe it. I just think everything is going to go wrong. The voice in my head is laughing at me all day long. I just keep thinking I'm too horrible a person. I really feel lousy all the time. The voices I hear are constantly messing with my head. They pretend like they are my friends, but really they hate me and want to lead me astray.
I really should have never gone back to school. I made bets in my head with Jesus that I would have to go to hell if I get certain grades. It was really stupid of me to go back to school. Well, now I'm supposed to graduate in a few weeks, but I'm really miserable. I think I'm going to get a certain grade and then I will just be teleported to hell. God showed me things that got teleported before, so I know he can do it.
God has set up everything for me to go to hell. Everything is against me. I've been having so many problems and I know God hates me even though everyone says he loves me. I just think if people knew all the things I did wrong they would hate me just like God. I'm really upset with everyone I know. I feel like if they loved me they could help me, but nobody can help me.
I'm going to try to read over all the nice messages people have left me. It helps to remember all the good advice I've been given. My loved ones can't take my fits of anger. My mom usually cries when I try to talk to her about how I'm going to hell. I just want her help, but nothing she says can help me. She tells me God loves me and Jesus is all about love, but I keep telling her I'm just too bad. She says that I'm really good deep down, but if I was really good why would I constantly think I'm going to hell? If I was really good, why would I hear voices condemning me all day long every day? My mom says it's just an illness. My mom says I have a chemical imbalance in my brain. I keep telling her that it's the devil, and he's laughing at me because he knows I'm going to hell and there is nothing I can do.
Thank you to everyone who has given me some kind words. They do help me, but I usually forget them soon after I get them. The voices I hear in my head are too powerful. They laugh at me all day long and tell me no matter what I do I'm going to hell. They say that whatever I do will be a mistake and I'm going to hell and there is nothing anyone can do to save me. I believe in Jesus and God and the Holy Spirit, but I feel like I did too much wrong. I feel like they are on the side of the voices. If God was on my side, why would he let me hear them laughing at me all day long?
Anyway, thank you for reading,
SnowTiger
