I think it's become increasingly obvious to me that I will probably never get married. I don't say this from a completely depressing viewpoint and I'm not going to just intentionally be celibate. If marriage happens then it happens but I highly doubt it will.
For one, I am disabled and my mental health will never be perfect (please don't start with the "God will heal your depression and anxiety" or "you don't have enough faith"), and I just am not marriage material???
My ailments make it easy to get irritated and no fun to hang out with (not necessarily bc of my personality or how I treat people but because there are some things I simply cannot do) and pretty much all of what's rest of my family has had nothing but divorce and unhappy marriages and it's hard to break that cycle.
I'm kind of sad for my mother because she's always wanted to see me happily married. And I know that not having a partner will make things ten times harder as I get older. All my friends will be married and I'll be stuck alone with maybe a cat or two.
It's sad but perhaps inevitable and expected. All there is to do is make peace with it now.
For one, I am disabled and my mental health will never be perfect (please don't start with the "God will heal your depression and anxiety" or "you don't have enough faith"), and I just am not marriage material???
My ailments make it easy to get irritated and no fun to hang out with (not necessarily bc of my personality or how I treat people but because there are some things I simply cannot do) and pretty much all of what's rest of my family has had nothing but divorce and unhappy marriages and it's hard to break that cycle.
I'm kind of sad for my mother because she's always wanted to see me happily married. And I know that not having a partner will make things ten times harder as I get older. All my friends will be married and I'll be stuck alone with maybe a cat or two.
It's sad but perhaps inevitable and expected. All there is to do is make peace with it now.
