God has done something absolutely amazing!
Every since I was little, about five years old, I've been abused, bullied and hurt by just about everyone around me. I never had any friends I could trust until I was 16, and it made me very self-destructive. I was hurting myself in every way. I was suicidal from around 11 years old and it only got worse. I couldn't talk to anyone, I had such social anxiety and a speech impediment, I was confused all the time, and ended up almost completely silent around other people. Or angry and mean. Anything would hurt me and trigger me, everything would confuse me. I was suicidal, because I didn't know what else to do.
Then came Jesus.
And He loved me. He brought me out of the pitch black darkness I was in. He healed me from my anger by teaching me to love and to turn the other cheek, then He gave me the courage to start coming out of my shell. Literally, the Gospel has been the only good thing in my life. Living for Jesus, loving God and loving others, being a light to the Gentiles, is what has spurred me on. Because of God being who He is.
I never cared about going to Heaven or Hell. God had to talk me into wanting to go to Heaven, because it scared me, having to be around people. It still does. But I eventually accepted it. Jesus is going to be there, and none of those who hurt me (unless they repent), so eventually my terrified mind could calm down and start looking forward to it.
My love for and devotion to God is growing more and more, and He is strengthening me to be even more courageous, and work harder for His Kingdom. Speak up! Don't be afraid, for He is with me! Always!
And then I realized yesterday that I trust Him so much, and I'm so deeply comforted by His Spirit, and His truth, I'm no longer afraid of people. Because He who is in me is so much greater and mightier than he who is in the world, and even more so than any human that is in the world.
I've been at peace for days. Praise God! His power really is made perfect in weakness. I'm no longer giving in to my suicidal tendencies or my self-destructive behavior. I have something better, and He isn't letting go!
And as for everything I have been through, He has used it to refine me. To give me perseverance and patience, faith, and make me completely focused on Christ, to get me to rely on Him in everything, because I've had to. And praise Him, He will use it to help others, and already has. It has given me compassion, and it has given me the understanding to help those who struggle to overcome their own fears, because I really know what it's like. And I know that the only thing that someone needs is Christ.
Nothing can stop God's plans. Not for me, not for anyone.
Praise Him! Glory to the Father and the Son Jesus Christ!
Every since I was little, about five years old, I've been abused, bullied and hurt by just about everyone around me. I never had any friends I could trust until I was 16, and it made me very self-destructive. I was hurting myself in every way. I was suicidal from around 11 years old and it only got worse. I couldn't talk to anyone, I had such social anxiety and a speech impediment, I was confused all the time, and ended up almost completely silent around other people. Or angry and mean. Anything would hurt me and trigger me, everything would confuse me. I was suicidal, because I didn't know what else to do.
Then came Jesus.
And He loved me. He brought me out of the pitch black darkness I was in. He healed me from my anger by teaching me to love and to turn the other cheek, then He gave me the courage to start coming out of my shell. Literally, the Gospel has been the only good thing in my life. Living for Jesus, loving God and loving others, being a light to the Gentiles, is what has spurred me on. Because of God being who He is.I never cared about going to Heaven or Hell. God had to talk me into wanting to go to Heaven, because it scared me, having to be around people. It still does. But I eventually accepted it. Jesus is going to be there, and none of those who hurt me (unless they repent), so eventually my terrified mind could calm down and start looking forward to it.
My love for and devotion to God is growing more and more, and He is strengthening me to be even more courageous, and work harder for His Kingdom. Speak up! Don't be afraid, for He is with me! Always!
And then I realized yesterday that I trust Him so much, and I'm so deeply comforted by His Spirit, and His truth, I'm no longer afraid of people. Because He who is in me is so much greater and mightier than he who is in the world, and even more so than any human that is in the world.
I've been at peace for days.
Praise God! His power really is made perfect in weakness. I'm no longer giving in to my suicidal tendencies or my self-destructive behavior. I have something better, and He isn't letting go!And as for everything I have been through, He has used it to refine me. To give me perseverance and patience, faith, and make me completely focused on Christ, to get me to rely on Him in everything, because I've had to. And praise Him, He will use it to help others, and already has. It has given me compassion, and it has given me the understanding to help those who struggle to overcome their own fears, because I really know what it's like. And I know that the only thing that someone needs is Christ.
Nothing can stop God's plans. Not for me, not for anyone.
Praise Him! Glory to the Father and the Son Jesus Christ!
