Sometimes there are no happy endings in a person's life. If you had asked me 10 years ago if I thought my life would turn out this way, I'd have said no. I miss the girl I was 10 years ago.
Went to a meeting with my therapist today. Ended up angry crying over all the things that are hurting me lately.
I want to have hope that one day soon God is going to step in and bring me a miracle and change my life. All my efforts thus far are in vain. I want to have hope so badly.
But things have cropped up to make me even question His existence and the real validity of Christianity as a whole. It's so sad but it's true.
I'm tired of life but I can't end it. I have no hope for even the tiniest bit of happiness in the future. Even my therapist, a woman who has seen more in her field than most people, was shocked at the sheer amount of pain I have had to and still am going through. She had no words.
Some people are forsaken by God if He's there at all. I'm starting to think that perhaps I'm just one of them.
Went to a meeting with my therapist today. Ended up angry crying over all the things that are hurting me lately.
I want to have hope that one day soon God is going to step in and bring me a miracle and change my life. All my efforts thus far are in vain. I want to have hope so badly.
But things have cropped up to make me even question His existence and the real validity of Christianity as a whole. It's so sad but it's true.
I'm tired of life but I can't end it. I have no hope for even the tiniest bit of happiness in the future. Even my therapist, a woman who has seen more in her field than most people, was shocked at the sheer amount of pain I have had to and still am going through. She had no words.
Some people are forsaken by God if He's there at all. I'm starting to think that perhaps I'm just one of them.
