I have to keep writing and working things through.
So, I have these girls that have been interested in me. They are all beautiful, meaning I lm attracted to them, they are attracted to me! so! I cant get near them.. Its a very slow process.
Im being controlled by the way they look or don't look over at me when in a crowd of people.
Im afraid I have lost one of them. Im feeling like a creepo around her because of my irresponsible nature. Something is wrong.. Im not sure.
The girls are beautiful! Im attracted to them. Something else is wrong. I hate the courting process. I feel like Im nothing and have nothing to offer anyone, they would be better off with someone else, and they will find this out soon enough! However, I understand that my thinking is ruling everything and that is a problem.
Ive been writing about my self destructive nature and how I sabotage everything. Ive been writing for a long while on this subject. Im getting somewhere.
Im afraid I cannot live up to the manhood that the girls require. Something is wrong! Seriously wrong!
I keep praying about everything, taking it all to God!
It could be my past! Im used to people 2 facing me! pulling the rug out from under me!
I need more time to process stuff. I may have to give up a few of the girls and move on! or all of them and move on! Im not sure.
So, I have these girls that have been interested in me. They are all beautiful, meaning I lm attracted to them, they are attracted to me! so! I cant get near them.. Its a very slow process.
Im being controlled by the way they look or don't look over at me when in a crowd of people.
Im afraid I have lost one of them. Im feeling like a creepo around her because of my irresponsible nature. Something is wrong.. Im not sure.
The girls are beautiful! Im attracted to them. Something else is wrong. I hate the courting process. I feel like Im nothing and have nothing to offer anyone, they would be better off with someone else, and they will find this out soon enough! However, I understand that my thinking is ruling everything and that is a problem.
Ive been writing about my self destructive nature and how I sabotage everything. Ive been writing for a long while on this subject. Im getting somewhere.
Im afraid I cannot live up to the manhood that the girls require. Something is wrong! Seriously wrong!
I keep praying about everything, taking it all to God!
It could be my past! Im used to people 2 facing me! pulling the rug out from under me!
I need more time to process stuff. I may have to give up a few of the girls and move on! or all of them and move on! Im not sure.
