No matter the struggles and no matter the difficulty - God is the one that answers the need!
I think sometimes I get confused with who is going to answer my situation? I guess sometimes I think that a friend is going to step in and do something or maybe be there for me when I least expect it or maybe I'll get that magical phone call from a friend with the answer of friendship.
But...it's not coming from a friend but from God. Whatever answer you're looking for it's God that we're praying to or even talking to. Sometimes I consider the prayers that I have as communication with a friend, telling him what I need and what I'm looking for. His answer may be "No" or even "Not right now" - but his answer is exactly what we need at that moment. We don't see it that way of course, because we think that we need that answer of "Yes" right then and there.
For example, this weekend I've been struggling with a nightmare when it comes to my OCD and I've been actually praying for God to take away my OCD or at least the chaos that I'm dealing with in one area. Deep down I know that a complete deliverance is probably not going to be the way that God decides to help me - but I'm not going to stop praying. I want to keep praying and telling God how I feel, because I really think that God wants us to be honest with him. It's a relationship with him. I mean this weekend I was ready to cut my head off and be done with already. I get so beat down on so many sides that I don't even know where to find my peace some days. It's a struggle with knowing happiness in the midst of chaos, wanting to be free and flying as the eagles fly. To be strong - mighty and brave in this type of situation.
What's really bad about situations is that some people may be able to go through things a lot better than others, and maybe that's why they have more weight on their shoulders and I guess I have to look at it also that my situation could definitely be worse.
That's why I say keep praying no matter what and no matter how much it appears that God is not answering, because maybe he is and we're not listening.
I think sometimes I get confused with who is going to answer my situation? I guess sometimes I think that a friend is going to step in and do something or maybe be there for me when I least expect it or maybe I'll get that magical phone call from a friend with the answer of friendship.
But...it's not coming from a friend but from God. Whatever answer you're looking for it's God that we're praying to or even talking to. Sometimes I consider the prayers that I have as communication with a friend, telling him what I need and what I'm looking for. His answer may be "No" or even "Not right now" - but his answer is exactly what we need at that moment. We don't see it that way of course, because we think that we need that answer of "Yes" right then and there.
For example, this weekend I've been struggling with a nightmare when it comes to my OCD and I've been actually praying for God to take away my OCD or at least the chaos that I'm dealing with in one area. Deep down I know that a complete deliverance is probably not going to be the way that God decides to help me - but I'm not going to stop praying. I want to keep praying and telling God how I feel, because I really think that God wants us to be honest with him. It's a relationship with him. I mean this weekend I was ready to cut my head off and be done with already. I get so beat down on so many sides that I don't even know where to find my peace some days. It's a struggle with knowing happiness in the midst of chaos, wanting to be free and flying as the eagles fly. To be strong - mighty and brave in this type of situation.
What's really bad about situations is that some people may be able to go through things a lot better than others, and maybe that's why they have more weight on their shoulders and I guess I have to look at it also that my situation could definitely be worse.
That's why I say keep praying no matter what and no matter how much it appears that God is not answering, because maybe he is and we're not listening.
