It's been a hard year so far... not all the 'hard' things have been 'bad', some have been good. These current days, though, they have been 'shadowed.' It feels like attack or just plain darkness that is hovering over, Jesus.
I have had a great victory in achieving the fruition of a project that me and Hubbs have been dreaming of and planning for 9 years. That achievement is GOOD, and I PRAISE You for it. It also has been hard and a constant battle to complete, and we are not quite finished it yet. Some of the hardest part is just ahead. I PRAY for Your grace over it all, for Your Glory.
You DID warn me a few months ago that we would do much battle and face much opposition to the building of Your plans into our life. You showed me that Teknon, who had thwarted our efforts for so long with his neediness and addictions would be replaced with 'other' opposition. You weren't kidding. It's everywhere. The enemy is not happy that we won't allow him into our building project. He's really coming at us.
The UIB in my life for the first time ever, is a LARGE obstacle. Lord, PLEASE, continue to show me the way through.... step by step. We are really struggling and NEED YOUR FAVOR to be poured out, even though the weaker we get the less we act like anything that deserves Your blessing. Please anoint us afresh, and help us, Jesus.
This brings us to the latest onslaught.... neediness coming at us from EVERYONE around us. This is starting to REALLY bug me, Jesus. I know that doesn't sound very Christian of me, but all these family members, who have never been there for us, who have never added to our lives, who WE can NEVER go to for help and have never offered any, either, no matter WHAT we were going through.... suddenly want our time and service and favors and attention. They have good reasons, like aging and trauma and the like. We are being pulled on HARD by a family on two sides who were never there for us !!! ONLY one of these people ever lent us a hand in the whole of our marriage, and I DO want to help her and her husband out, my sister-in-law. The others are only there when they need us. I'm serving at my Mom's house, doing chores that I am happy to do, she raised me. Even if she never did anything for me and my husband in all these years of marriage, she is my Mom, after all. This is no issue for me.
What is an issue is that others, who never do or never have done anything for me and Hubbs, are pulling on us, while we are in the midst of this building project.... and throwing guilt at us, like we owe them something. They were never there for us in any crisis. Not only that, they never even acted like family, for the most part unless I made some huge effort.
Why have You allowed us to be so dependent on ONLY YOU for all these years, never receiving help from any of these people, only to now ask us to turn around and minister to them? There MUST be a purpose in it. There must be some reason why You have made me to do what is right, because it's right ! People are always needy around me. I'm sick of it only when we are weak. Then, I look around at what we are going through and say,"Hey, where's everybody when WE need THEM ?" They are always conveniently missing and oblivious to our needs, in this family. I'm tired of all this ONE WAY STREET GIVING !
If You want us to continue to minister to others, YOU need to minister to US, Jesus.... because no one else does !
I am hanging on EVERY word You say !
Jesus sends and answers knee mail !Thanks for being there to ask this of, that is the Joy that I keep ! Please bring RECIPROCAL LOVERS into our lives and please minister to us in OUR NEED, Jesus. I'm tired of all the takers who never seem to bring anything with them for us BUT needs.
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I have had a great victory in achieving the fruition of a project that me and Hubbs have been dreaming of and planning for 9 years. That achievement is GOOD, and I PRAISE You for it. It also has been hard and a constant battle to complete, and we are not quite finished it yet. Some of the hardest part is just ahead. I PRAY for Your grace over it all, for Your Glory.
You DID warn me a few months ago that we would do much battle and face much opposition to the building of Your plans into our life. You showed me that Teknon, who had thwarted our efforts for so long with his neediness and addictions would be replaced with 'other' opposition. You weren't kidding. It's everywhere. The enemy is not happy that we won't allow him into our building project. He's really coming at us.
The UIB in my life for the first time ever, is a LARGE obstacle. Lord, PLEASE, continue to show me the way through.... step by step. We are really struggling and NEED YOUR FAVOR to be poured out, even though the weaker we get the less we act like anything that deserves Your blessing. Please anoint us afresh, and help us, Jesus.
This brings us to the latest onslaught.... neediness coming at us from EVERYONE around us. This is starting to REALLY bug me, Jesus. I know that doesn't sound very Christian of me, but all these family members, who have never been there for us, who have never added to our lives, who WE can NEVER go to for help and have never offered any, either, no matter WHAT we were going through.... suddenly want our time and service and favors and attention. They have good reasons, like aging and trauma and the like. We are being pulled on HARD by a family on two sides who were never there for us !!! ONLY one of these people ever lent us a hand in the whole of our marriage, and I DO want to help her and her husband out, my sister-in-law. The others are only there when they need us. I'm serving at my Mom's house, doing chores that I am happy to do, she raised me. Even if she never did anything for me and my husband in all these years of marriage, she is my Mom, after all. This is no issue for me.
What is an issue is that others, who never do or never have done anything for me and Hubbs, are pulling on us, while we are in the midst of this building project.... and throwing guilt at us, like we owe them something. They were never there for us in any crisis. Not only that, they never even acted like family, for the most part unless I made some huge effort.
Why have You allowed us to be so dependent on ONLY YOU for all these years, never receiving help from any of these people, only to now ask us to turn around and minister to them? There MUST be a purpose in it. There must be some reason why You have made me to do what is right, because it's right ! People are always needy around me. I'm sick of it only when we are weak. Then, I look around at what we are going through and say,"Hey, where's everybody when WE need THEM ?" They are always conveniently missing and oblivious to our needs, in this family. I'm tired of all this ONE WAY STREET GIVING !
If You want us to continue to minister to others, YOU need to minister to US, Jesus.... because no one else does !
"Breathing" ~ Lifehouse ~
Jesus sends and answers knee mail !
Please hear this prayer in the spirit of great anguish and faith that it is sent to You. I am glad that I can say that You built GR without anyone else's help. It makes it all to Your Glory alone. Please, Jesus, help us now AGAIN when there is no support for US but You... and so much need at our door. Thanks, always, my King. amen
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[FONT=Arial, Helvetica]Strong's: 7812 [FONT=Arial, Helvetica]Original Word ~hxX: ~[FONT=Arial, Helvetica]Transliterated Word ~ [FONT=Arial, Helvetica]Shachah [FONT=Arial, Helvetica]Phonetic Spelling ~ [/FONT][FONT=Arial, Helvetica]shaw-khaw' Definition: to bow down, prostrate oneself before superior in homage; before God in worship;...[/FONT][/FONT][/FONT]
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[FONT=Arial, Geneva, Helvetica]You're sons of Light, daughters of Day. We live under wide open skies and know where we stand. [/FONT][FONT=Arial, Geneva, Helvetica]So let's not sleepwalk through life ... Since we're creatures of Day, let's act like it. Walk out into the daylight sober, dressed up in faith, love, and the hope of salvation.[/FONT]
[FONT=Arial, Geneva, Helvetica]1 THESSALONIANS 5:5...8 ~The Message Remix[/FONT]
~~---->>> Love; from above and within, Shachah <----~~
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[FONT=Arial, Helvetica]Strong's: 7812 [FONT=Arial, Helvetica]Original Word ~hxX: ~[FONT=Arial, Helvetica]Transliterated Word ~ [FONT=Arial, Helvetica]Shachah [FONT=Arial, Helvetica]Phonetic Spelling ~ [/FONT][FONT=Arial, Helvetica]shaw-khaw' Definition: to bow down, prostrate oneself before superior in homage; before God in worship;...[/FONT][/FONT][/FONT]
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[FONT=Arial, Geneva, Helvetica]You're sons of Light, daughters of Day. We live under wide open skies and know where we stand. [/FONT][FONT=Arial, Geneva, Helvetica]So let's not sleepwalk through life ... Since we're creatures of Day, let's act like it. Walk out into the daylight sober, dressed up in faith, love, and the hope of salvation.[/FONT]
[FONT=Arial, Geneva, Helvetica]1 THESSALONIANS 5:5...8 ~The Message Remix[/FONT]
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