When I think about God's holiness, I think about how polar opposite ANYTHING the flesh has to offer is... any pride of how someone looks, any type of career-pride, education, material things like cars and money... it is so polar opposite to the holiness of God. When I was in grade school, I wanted to be accepted and liked by the ''cool'' kids so bad, and I would look at the geeky kids that other kids were embarrassed to be around and have an urge to pick on them because all the other kids did, but deep in my heart I really loved the nerdy kids and only wanted to hang around them, NOT the cool kids. The reason kids would pick on the nerdy kids is because there is a purity and righteousness inside the geeky kids that other kids don't have, and young people are deceived into thinking we need to ''rebel'' against what is good... and the nerdy kids don't care what they look like, and they put up with being bullied by other kids... God's holiness is MORE than what those geeky kids have... he is the KING of what the ''cool kids'' are too embarrassed to hang around with. Any fleshly pride WILL be burned away and the only thing that remains is the pure, holy love of God. The spiritual realm is either pure holiness or pure evil... pure life or pure death... there are NO part good and part evil beings in the spiritual realm.
When I look at how hard I tried to follow the world, how desperately I tried to be accepted by the ways of the world, it hurts really bad... I hurt a lot of people when I was younger and now I am convinced that being a Christian is the only way to live... every other way is death. I had a dream the other night that my pastors son, who is my age and runs the college and young adults ministry, came up to me and was demanding that I bow down to him and surrender to him and had an angry tone... when I thought about it the next morning, I realized that that dream could be interpreted as Jesus demanding that I surrender to HIM or else the anger or God will be towards me... it just might of been a dream from God. I mean, honestly, there is no other way... I have Gods love in my heart but getting my flesh and life to MATCH that love is the hard part. I have a rebel nature that I can still feel inside me, the same rebel nature that kids think is so ''cool'' when in reality is just plain evil and wrong. I don't know how it got there, but I know it MUST be burned away or I will never be at peace in walking in Gods love.
When I look at how hard I tried to follow the world, how desperately I tried to be accepted by the ways of the world, it hurts really bad... I hurt a lot of people when I was younger and now I am convinced that being a Christian is the only way to live... every other way is death. I had a dream the other night that my pastors son, who is my age and runs the college and young adults ministry, came up to me and was demanding that I bow down to him and surrender to him and had an angry tone... when I thought about it the next morning, I realized that that dream could be interpreted as Jesus demanding that I surrender to HIM or else the anger or God will be towards me... it just might of been a dream from God. I mean, honestly, there is no other way... I have Gods love in my heart but getting my flesh and life to MATCH that love is the hard part. I have a rebel nature that I can still feel inside me, the same rebel nature that kids think is so ''cool'' when in reality is just plain evil and wrong. I don't know how it got there, but I know it MUST be burned away or I will never be at peace in walking in Gods love.
