I am finding a lot of comfort in reading my Bible. I am trying to be more like Jesus, who was forgiving and a healer. I have been thinking about my abusers a lot. I imagine they had to be in a extreme amount of pain to do what they did to me. I feel anger toward them often but I ask Jesus to give me a tender heart so I can heal them. I pray daily for my main abuser, Silver. She is the one who kidnapped me and beat, overfed and sexually assaulted me. There were also two of her friends that raped me named Micah and Josiah. She had others helping when I was on Second Life, helping to deceive me. Many of them I thought were my friends and I loved them. Some of their names are Emma, Aimee, Alexis and Allen. They all helped in stalking me, I only found that out much later. I have been praying for all of them. I feel Jesus holding me when I pray for them. I want to heal these people so that they too will be Christians one day. Sometimes I feel hatred rise in my heart toward them, but then I think that they must have lived a horrible life to do something so horrifying to me. I pray that even though they hurt me so horrifically that their deep wounds heal and they come to the saving grace of Jesus Christ and be healed. Silver especially, as she hurt me the worst.