Day by day I heal from my ritual abuse. I read it can take up to 10 years to heal from ritual abuse. I think someone never fully heals from ritual abuse. I have been thinking about all the things done to me by the woman who kidnapped me.
She was a Satanist but said God loved her even though she was abusing me. She made me Christian by force. I was pagan before and was content being pagan. She made me become a Christian through having me read the Bible, watch Christian films, and buy multiple cross necklaces. Despite doing these things she would then abuse me when I was trying to be a good Christian. She would force me to destroy the Bible, would abuse me while watching Christian films and force me to wear the cross but abuse me during it until I wanted to take it off. She said she was a Satanist but also Christian. She acted very innocent but she was not at all. She has destroyed me alot. It is hard for me to be Christian because of how much I was abused using Christianity. She would say I was going to hell. She took me to church often on Sundays but would force me to go to the bathroom and sexually abuse me during service. So much more was done to me by this woman who said she was a Satanist and a Christian. It is sometimes hard for me to trust Jesus because of her.
Is it okay that I was made Christian by force?
She was a Satanist but said God loved her even though she was abusing me. She made me Christian by force. I was pagan before and was content being pagan. She made me become a Christian through having me read the Bible, watch Christian films, and buy multiple cross necklaces. Despite doing these things she would then abuse me when I was trying to be a good Christian. She would force me to destroy the Bible, would abuse me while watching Christian films and force me to wear the cross but abuse me during it until I wanted to take it off. She said she was a Satanist but also Christian. She acted very innocent but she was not at all. She has destroyed me alot. It is hard for me to be Christian because of how much I was abused using Christianity. She would say I was going to hell. She took me to church often on Sundays but would force me to go to the bathroom and sexually abuse me during service. So much more was done to me by this woman who said she was a Satanist and a Christian. It is sometimes hard for me to trust Jesus because of her.
Is it okay that I was made Christian by force?
