humans are sick and don't know it. they murder their children and don't think much of it. they kill their children because they are not a convenience to them. they seem to be confused as to what humanity is and what a demon is. murders, and they don't think much of it, because they don't even have much of a real soul. sick people with no hearts. kill your own children because of why? I don't understand how much of a delusion some are in. some of me wants to kill them but I don't want to be like they are. abortions are murder, abortions are murder, abortions are murder.
this reason alone is enough to hate the commonality of the world, this alone is enough to not want anything to do with human sexuality. I don't want to be a slave like they are, the first tyrant is the self, the body is a prison until it's not, but the flesh must transmute into what it is supposed to be. what is the human sexual nature in spiritual maturity? surly not like everyone else is.
the world is insane and though I have family that loves me i'm not able to find much to tolerate existing here in this world. I don't want to be part of it. my dreams and true desires... I want love and goodness and innocence, deep communion with souls that are naturally deeply close to me, I don't even know what else to want besides that. if those things are not true then why do I keep living here? dying is easier than living and it is not worth existing in this insane prison.
I go on but I don't know for how long. still holding out for some kind of perfect resolution... if I can't have it, I hope I won't torture myself much longer by enduring the sick structures of this blinded humanity, it would be better to die young than to keep existing in the empty constructions that the insane spirits add unto the good things of this world... and they thus pollute them. what I want is PURITY and INNOCENT LOVE THAT IS FOREVER.
I want the good without the evil!
lyrics for 'Materialistic Lie by Antestor':
Satisfaction death reaction
Lifeless being life deceiving
Materialistic lie existing till you die
The world cannot give nor let you live
Lustful bodies skinned to the core
still crying out for so much more
Needing eyes filled with desire
made to be just another liar
Turn away it's hell to pay
Not a very nice place to stay
When you die the needing eyes cry
there's nothing left to consume
All that you've worked for falls through the dust
there's only hell left to pay for your lust
Materialistic lie existing till you die
The world cannot give nor let you live
this reason alone is enough to hate the commonality of the world, this alone is enough to not want anything to do with human sexuality. I don't want to be a slave like they are, the first tyrant is the self, the body is a prison until it's not, but the flesh must transmute into what it is supposed to be. what is the human sexual nature in spiritual maturity? surly not like everyone else is.
the world is insane and though I have family that loves me i'm not able to find much to tolerate existing here in this world. I don't want to be part of it. my dreams and true desires... I want love and goodness and innocence, deep communion with souls that are naturally deeply close to me, I don't even know what else to want besides that. if those things are not true then why do I keep living here? dying is easier than living and it is not worth existing in this insane prison.
I go on but I don't know for how long. still holding out for some kind of perfect resolution... if I can't have it, I hope I won't torture myself much longer by enduring the sick structures of this blinded humanity, it would be better to die young than to keep existing in the empty constructions that the insane spirits add unto the good things of this world... and they thus pollute them. what I want is PURITY and INNOCENT LOVE THAT IS FOREVER.
I want the good without the evil!
lyrics for 'Materialistic Lie by Antestor':
Satisfaction death reaction
Lifeless being life deceiving
Materialistic lie existing till you die
The world cannot give nor let you live
Lustful bodies skinned to the core
still crying out for so much more
Needing eyes filled with desire
made to be just another liar
Turn away it's hell to pay
Not a very nice place to stay
When you die the needing eyes cry
there's nothing left to consume
All that you've worked for falls through the dust
there's only hell left to pay for your lust
Materialistic lie existing till you die
The world cannot give nor let you live
