It's been awhile since my last post.. I've been.. OK. I think I've been kinda neurotic lately though. My mom is still bugging me to eat more, but I have gained 15 lbs. (Which is good) 
But the doctor said I still need to gain at least 15 more lbs. And yesterday, all my (older) sister ate was a bowl of spaghetti and a mini muffin (w/ whipped cream). Tbh, when she's unhappy and depressed (she has had many painful relationships & hardships), I feel like I can't be happy. I may be codependent on her, which is really unhealthy.. When she's depressed, I can tell by her ~vibes~, and she'll usually close her bedroom door and I might not see her till the next day. I feel unusually depressed when I sense she is, maybe like I feel I can't be happy if she's not. Please pray that I will be changed to depend completely on God, and to focus on Him and His ways. ♥
But the doctor said I still need to gain at least 15 more lbs. And yesterday, all my (older) sister ate was a bowl of spaghetti and a mini muffin (w/ whipped cream). Tbh, when she's unhappy and depressed (she has had many painful relationships & hardships), I feel like I can't be happy. I may be codependent on her, which is really unhealthy.. When she's depressed, I can tell by her ~vibes~, and she'll usually close her bedroom door and I might not see her till the next day. I feel unusually depressed when I sense she is, maybe like I feel I can't be happy if she's not. Please pray that I will be changed to depend completely on God, and to focus on Him and His ways. ♥
