I had a wonderful day today. God blessed us with great weather. Sunny all day with just a few tiny clouds in the sky. Me and my sister took the bus and went to a few places in the area around where I live.
It was beautiful, and the Lord blessed every second of the day. He let me know just how much He is with me.
I wrote yesterday about how I had a good talk with my sister, but I didn't share the details. I found out yesterday that she had taken my credit card and withdrawn an equivalency of $300 to use for herself. I got the credit card bill yesterday and I asked her about it, and she was basically just nonchalant about it. Then I prayed and asked Jesus to lead me, and He really helped me. He made me get very stern, but loving towards her. I explained that it was criminal and very, very wrong, and I didn't stop until she had understood it, and then she started crying. She explained to me how bad she was feeling about everything, after their friend died last year, and she hadn't had anyone to talk to. We had a really good talk, I prayed for her and we went for a walk and she smiled for the first time in a long while. Praise Jesus, because the old me would have screamed at her and probably gotten violent. I am amazed at how much He is doing.
I realized how distant I have been from her lately. Struggling so much myself, and having my mom around, who used to abuse me and still barely shows any feelings most days, having to help her with her finances and helping her finding a job and stability, and focusing so much on God and ministry, and still battling the trauma from last year... I let our relationship become a really low priority... I don't know whether God was leading me to help her at all, or waiting until my focus was completely on Him, but I have felt really bad not being there for her. Everything has been so confusing.
But we went for this trip today, and she looked really happy and relieved. It was wonderful!
And the Lord really, really blessed us all day long. Praise Him!
Matthew 6:33
I am feeling really joyful right now.
It was beautiful, and the Lord blessed every second of the day. He let me know just how much He is with me.
I wrote yesterday about how I had a good talk with my sister, but I didn't share the details. I found out yesterday that she had taken my credit card and withdrawn an equivalency of $300 to use for herself. I got the credit card bill yesterday and I asked her about it, and she was basically just nonchalant about it. Then I prayed and asked Jesus to lead me, and He really helped me. He made me get very stern, but loving towards her. I explained that it was criminal and very, very wrong, and I didn't stop until she had understood it, and then she started crying. She explained to me how bad she was feeling about everything, after their friend died last year, and she hadn't had anyone to talk to. We had a really good talk, I prayed for her and we went for a walk and she smiled for the first time in a long while. Praise Jesus, because the old me would have screamed at her and probably gotten violent. I am amazed at how much He is doing.
I realized how distant I have been from her lately. Struggling so much myself, and having my mom around, who used to abuse me and still barely shows any feelings most days, having to help her with her finances and helping her finding a job and stability, and focusing so much on God and ministry, and still battling the trauma from last year... I let our relationship become a really low priority... I don't know whether God was leading me to help her at all, or waiting until my focus was completely on Him, but I have felt really bad not being there for her. Everything has been so confusing.
But we went for this trip today, and she looked really happy and relieved. It was wonderful!
And the Lord really, really blessed us all day long. Praise Him!
Matthew 6:33
I am feeling really joyful right now.
