Forgiveness is a hard one to follow and hard one to do. My last post I had to go back and read it and realize I was in a lot of pain and a lot of anger coming forth in that post. It's taken me awhile to let it go in some aspects and in others to learn to calm down and breath through my emotions and get on proper medications. Now some of you may agree on medications some do not. It's how ever the person needs and to deal with the past and how things fall in what all happened. The door opened up to have me talk to my son and I prayed and I believed with every thing in my being and in my soul that my son would be in my life soon and it happened. Now weather God heard me and knew that I cried so many tears and just need my son in my life after seven years of pain and not seen him its been a total wreck of my life.
After talking to my son's step mom, we spoke of the past a couple times just to understand what was going on and what was happening and how it was happening looking back, I see things now and wished I was able to talk to her more then than now on what was going on than just trying to fight for custody. Due to what I was being told I had a feeling it was a lie a set up but I was not sure it was just uncertainty I knew my son way to well for what I was being told. After the couch was taken from me to sleep on and had to sleep on the cold hard floor I knew that was it, I had to make some changes I was being played for a fiddle and people don't treat your best friend like that....
I pray for forgiveness and for known and unknown sins and actions and thoughts.. I'm still working on with the Lords help to forgive my friend. The wound is to fresh and raw I cut her off and out of my life I dont know if it will be a life time or a few more years. I also cut another couple out of my life since they cant keep up in mine so I cant keep up in theirs. There was nothing done wrong, just a lot of sin which need forgiveness for. Which I prayed for. Some times I felt my body change and make a complete turn around when I asked the Lord for forgiveness and for help. So you never know! One advice just because you may know someone you truly don't.. Watch their steps and see if they are true. Blessings
After talking to my son's step mom, we spoke of the past a couple times just to understand what was going on and what was happening and how it was happening looking back, I see things now and wished I was able to talk to her more then than now on what was going on than just trying to fight for custody. Due to what I was being told I had a feeling it was a lie a set up but I was not sure it was just uncertainty I knew my son way to well for what I was being told. After the couch was taken from me to sleep on and had to sleep on the cold hard floor I knew that was it, I had to make some changes I was being played for a fiddle and people don't treat your best friend like that....
I pray for forgiveness and for known and unknown sins and actions and thoughts.. I'm still working on with the Lords help to forgive my friend. The wound is to fresh and raw I cut her off and out of my life I dont know if it will be a life time or a few more years. I also cut another couple out of my life since they cant keep up in mine so I cant keep up in theirs. There was nothing done wrong, just a lot of sin which need forgiveness for. Which I prayed for. Some times I felt my body change and make a complete turn around when I asked the Lord for forgiveness and for help. So you never know! One advice just because you may know someone you truly don't.. Watch their steps and see if they are true. Blessings
