Today is February first. I cant believe time moves so quickly. It feels like it was just Christmas. Today was a harder day. I had bad memories and began to mourn what I lost in my torture. But I prayed to the Lord today and expressed my need for him and he comforted me. He expressed to me that I am being protected and he knows that the devil has tried to destroy my soul. He said that no one can snatch me out of his hand. He said he knows that I am mourning my losses but that he will restore everything that has been taken from me. He said he knows today was a hard day for me but that he has sent an angel to protect me. He said that the angel will not leave me until I am completely healed. Jesus let me know that he is wiping my tears and that he understands that I am suffering deeply but that tonight he gifted me the gift of mercy in my heart-that I have mercy on myself and on those who hurt me.