Failing Heart

During my break and last class, my heartbeat was feeling too forceful and hardly working. In my last class I could tell I was making large movements with my lungs and ribs and it felt like my ribs were popping (like the way your fingers pop not like they were bursting). It got harder to breathe and just getting to my (an update: Mom's) car felt like a trip. Nobody could get me so I had to drive. I almost drove over a curve, in the way of other cars (going the same way or oncoming if I spun going over that first curve I swerved away from). I almost drove off the road and into ditches. I had (another update: the) air condition pretty strong to I could get more oxygen but my lip and face felt strange and I lost some control of my arms and legs. My eyes are still twitching. I was worried if I went unconscious I would get into a high-speed wreck, and some of my veins in my neck, on my collarbone, and in my eye feel like pulsing or popping (not as much popping, just like the wrong amount of blood I think they can stretch/contract better than I thought). I can’t see well and felt like I couldn’t process right where I was or where I needed to be. I feel like I can’t think or feel much spiritually right now, which is scary because I don’t want to die physically then forever.

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