Oh, not again!!
ROM 8:15-19
15 I don't understand myself at all, for I really want to do what is right, but I can't. I do what I don't want to - what I hate.16 I know perfectly well that what I am doing is wrong, and my bad conscience proves that I agree with these laws I am breaking.17 But I can't help myself, because I am no longer doing it. It is sin inside me that is stronger than I am that makes me do these evil things.
18 I know I am rotten through and through so far as my old sinful nature is concerned. No matter which way I turn I can't make myself do right. I want to but I can't.
19 When I want to do good, I don't; and when I try not to do wrong I do it anyway.
I don't like this word evil, I'm going with weak. And not good for me. i want to do things differently, I don't want all that sexual focus. i don't think it's bad and wrong to be thinking about that, it is natural and developing out of getting to know someone and being attracted to them, but I know how it can take over. I've been there, too much. I just don't want that anymore. But I still let thing go further than i'm actually happy with, as if it's out of my hands. Is it out of my hands? No, of course not. But I have to flag up these concerns in advance of a situation arising, because once the situation does arise i don't want to stop. I don't know if this is hard to understand for someone, or if it presents an added interest in wanting to break my resolve. Not that I'm abdicating responsibility, and not that I blame another person for acting and reacting naturally. it's just not helping me stay clean.
ROM 8:15-19
15 I don't understand myself at all, for I really want to do what is right, but I can't. I do what I don't want to - what I hate.16 I know perfectly well that what I am doing is wrong, and my bad conscience proves that I agree with these laws I am breaking.17 But I can't help myself, because I am no longer doing it. It is sin inside me that is stronger than I am that makes me do these evil things.
18 I know I am rotten through and through so far as my old sinful nature is concerned. No matter which way I turn I can't make myself do right. I want to but I can't.
19 When I want to do good, I don't; and when I try not to do wrong I do it anyway.
I don't like this word evil, I'm going with weak. And not good for me. i want to do things differently, I don't want all that sexual focus. i don't think it's bad and wrong to be thinking about that, it is natural and developing out of getting to know someone and being attracted to them, but I know how it can take over. I've been there, too much. I just don't want that anymore. But I still let thing go further than i'm actually happy with, as if it's out of my hands. Is it out of my hands? No, of course not. But I have to flag up these concerns in advance of a situation arising, because once the situation does arise i don't want to stop. I don't know if this is hard to understand for someone, or if it presents an added interest in wanting to break my resolve. Not that I'm abdicating responsibility, and not that I blame another person for acting and reacting naturally. it's just not helping me stay clean.
