I keep fallowing God, asking Gods direction.
When I expect people to treat me a certain way, and they cant. I get mad. I get horribly mad if they don't act the way I want them to.. I hate being manipulated...
Some how Im right with God I think. Im not right with the world.
Then the world creeps in and takes over and I leave. I retreat. I expect others to treat me with respect. That is more important then what is right.. To me.. I guess I want to be treated like a God>? My My.. Is that it. Ive been hurt. I want others to recognize this..
So many people, none want to be friends with me. No one...
I do not understand. Even the girl that chased me for attention in the meetings did not value me, she did not want to be friends with me. She did not want to be my friend.
The price of God is high. I loose so many people. So many. Im not sure why Im loosing so many. Im just demanding that people honer and respect. That is all Im asking. Possibly Im asking the wrong people.
I hate being hated by people that don't understand.
Finally Im considered indifferent, and Im hated without a cause.
I have only online things and meetings. I have little else.
I wish to have a better relationship with God. I pray to have more compassion for people. Yet, stay far away from them.
I would love to move away. Im not sure where. Would any where really be any different.
Im looking to get past the stupid stuff in this life and get back to what matters.
When I expect people to treat me a certain way, and they cant. I get mad. I get horribly mad if they don't act the way I want them to.. I hate being manipulated...
Some how Im right with God I think. Im not right with the world.
Then the world creeps in and takes over and I leave. I retreat. I expect others to treat me with respect. That is more important then what is right.. To me.. I guess I want to be treated like a God>? My My.. Is that it. Ive been hurt. I want others to recognize this..
So many people, none want to be friends with me. No one...
I do not understand. Even the girl that chased me for attention in the meetings did not value me, she did not want to be friends with me. She did not want to be my friend.
The price of God is high. I loose so many people. So many. Im not sure why Im loosing so many. Im just demanding that people honer and respect. That is all Im asking. Possibly Im asking the wrong people.
I hate being hated by people that don't understand.
Finally Im considered indifferent, and Im hated without a cause.
I have only online things and meetings. I have little else.
I wish to have a better relationship with God. I pray to have more compassion for people. Yet, stay far away from them.
I would love to move away. Im not sure where. Would any where really be any different.
Im looking to get past the stupid stuff in this life and get back to what matters.
