Today was better, kind of. I went to church with my mom. The service and music were nice. Afterward I had a short period when I was lying down when the voices stopped bothering me. It was nice to not hear the voices for some time. I really hate the voices. One of the voices is nice, but he bothers me just as much as the nasty voice does. I wish I didn't have any voices at all.
I'm still really feeling afraid of going to hell. The nasty voice says that after I die I will wake up in a coffin and never get out. He says that is what God has planned for me. He talks a lot about my sins and says that I'm "just bad enough." He says that I'm not terrible, but I'm just bad enough to go to hell. Most of the bad stuff that I did was years ago, so I've repented, but the nasty voice won't stop bringing things up. The nasty voice says mean things about my mother too. He calls my mother names.
I know that the devil lies, but for some reason I feel like he is telling the truth this time. He says he knows the future and says he knows how and when I will die. I'm really afraid that if I die the way he tells me then I will wake up in a coffin afterward. He says that I will never get out.
I'm still really feeling afraid of going to hell. The nasty voice says that after I die I will wake up in a coffin and never get out. He says that is what God has planned for me. He talks a lot about my sins and says that I'm "just bad enough." He says that I'm not terrible, but I'm just bad enough to go to hell. Most of the bad stuff that I did was years ago, so I've repented, but the nasty voice won't stop bringing things up. The nasty voice says mean things about my mother too. He calls my mother names.
I know that the devil lies, but for some reason I feel like he is telling the truth this time. He says he knows the future and says he knows how and when I will die. I'm really afraid that if I die the way he tells me then I will wake up in a coffin afterward. He says that I will never get out.
