Howdy Christian Forum. Another blog for you from me, your friendly neighborhood Christian. Lol. (Like " friendly neighborhood Spider-Man")
Anyhoo...
If you've read any of my blogs thus far, you're already familiar with the unusual way my brain works. So fasten your seat belts and let's begin.
While driving today I had an open discussion with God. While I did not audibly hear Him answer, as I talked aloud, things just started to "click". This type of sudden understanding is often called an "epiphany". But I wonder if it is not the Holy Spirit providing answers. ( I welcome thoughts on this.)
... I don't really know how to make this paragraph flow from the last one ... so let's all just accept that I'm not writing an essay here lol...and look past it.
See, I had many kinds of people in my life. Good ones and bad ones. I've been treated as though I was less than dirt, and I've also been blessed with loving friendships. Today, I fully admit, was one of my "pity party days" (just a touch). And i was focused on those bad relationships. I've been viewed as evil, mean, and a liar. I know I shouldn't base my value on others' opinion of me..but...well, it can hurt. Hopefully, to those who associate with me, it comes across that I am none of those things, mean, evil or lying. Most of these judgments were made by the family of the man who assaulted me. They hated me. Blamed me for getting him into trouble. Yeah. It was my hair that was ripped out and my hand scarred...
Let me get off of this.
Basically, I've had people make awful judgments against me. I have had family, people who should know me and love me the most, say some of the most hurtful things about me. I know I am not the awful things I have been told I am. Those things...they aren't my name. Or my worth. But my question for God today as I drove was,
" When will someone see my heart?"
1st Samuel 16:7 tells us that God does not see as man sees but sees our hearts.
" But the Lord said to Samuel, " do not look at his height of his stature, because I have rejected him; for God sees not as man sees, man looks at the outward appearance but the Lord looks at the heart."
Yes. God sees my heart. In another blog I talked about how I have been afraid to pray or rather afraid to get into a deeper relationship with Him, because I am afraid of intimacy. People have judged me, rejected me, and abused me in my life. But God. Oh but God. He knows me. He knit me together. (psalm 139:13-14) He knows my heart. He knows me better than I do. I don't know what Id do if I didn't have God's love.
But at times I can't help but ask, will another person ever see me like that? Can people see one another's hearts? Or just God?
I remember once hearing a woman on TV asked why she believed we, the human race, we're in existence. Her answer was "I believe we are all here to help each other."
Scripture supports this.
1st John 3:17 Philipians 2:4 and Matthew 25:35-40 are all ones I found on helping others. Im sure there are many more. (Feel free to leave verses in comments)
At the time I heard this however, I was not yet and Christian and I logicked everything out. In my opinion if people simply did not exist at all there would be no need for us to help each other. How can the point of our existence be to help each other? If we didn't exist we wouldn't need to. That was my thinking back then. Ah, I know better now. We Exist because of God's love and the purpose of helping each other is to demonstrate that love He has for us and to bring Him glory.
That is why there are so many of us. We are all here to help each other. We are made to connect with each other. Not just connect like as in to the Internet lol.But connect as in spiritually (because we are called into discipleship with one another), physically, (not to be alone, but develop friendships and have families), even to.... drum roll
Connect Emotionally. To see each other deep down for who we really are. To see each other's hearts. Epiphany? Hmmm...
No, no two people can ever be intimate (connected, understood by, known fully) with each other as a person can be with God. He knows our thoughts before we have them. He knows our past our present and our future. No one can know us like God. No human's love can be as deep as God's.
But can we look at another person and see past the surface? Can we choose to see into the depths of who a person really is and love them? Can we not only see, but Value another person's heart? After today I not only believe this is possible, I believe it is what we are made for.
Anyhoo...
If you've read any of my blogs thus far, you're already familiar with the unusual way my brain works. So fasten your seat belts and let's begin.
While driving today I had an open discussion with God. While I did not audibly hear Him answer, as I talked aloud, things just started to "click". This type of sudden understanding is often called an "epiphany". But I wonder if it is not the Holy Spirit providing answers. ( I welcome thoughts on this.)
... I don't really know how to make this paragraph flow from the last one ... so let's all just accept that I'm not writing an essay here lol...and look past it.
See, I had many kinds of people in my life. Good ones and bad ones. I've been treated as though I was less than dirt, and I've also been blessed with loving friendships. Today, I fully admit, was one of my "pity party days" (just a touch). And i was focused on those bad relationships. I've been viewed as evil, mean, and a liar. I know I shouldn't base my value on others' opinion of me..but...well, it can hurt. Hopefully, to those who associate with me, it comes across that I am none of those things, mean, evil or lying. Most of these judgments were made by the family of the man who assaulted me. They hated me. Blamed me for getting him into trouble. Yeah. It was my hair that was ripped out and my hand scarred...
Let me get off of this.
Basically, I've had people make awful judgments against me. I have had family, people who should know me and love me the most, say some of the most hurtful things about me. I know I am not the awful things I have been told I am. Those things...they aren't my name. Or my worth. But my question for God today as I drove was,
" When will someone see my heart?"
1st Samuel 16:7 tells us that God does not see as man sees but sees our hearts.
" But the Lord said to Samuel, " do not look at his height of his stature, because I have rejected him; for God sees not as man sees, man looks at the outward appearance but the Lord looks at the heart."
Yes. God sees my heart. In another blog I talked about how I have been afraid to pray or rather afraid to get into a deeper relationship with Him, because I am afraid of intimacy. People have judged me, rejected me, and abused me in my life. But God. Oh but God. He knows me. He knit me together. (psalm 139:13-14) He knows my heart. He knows me better than I do. I don't know what Id do if I didn't have God's love.
But at times I can't help but ask, will another person ever see me like that? Can people see one another's hearts? Or just God?
I remember once hearing a woman on TV asked why she believed we, the human race, we're in existence. Her answer was "I believe we are all here to help each other."
Scripture supports this.
1st John 3:17 Philipians 2:4 and Matthew 25:35-40 are all ones I found on helping others. Im sure there are many more. (Feel free to leave verses in comments)
At the time I heard this however, I was not yet and Christian and I logicked everything out. In my opinion if people simply did not exist at all there would be no need for us to help each other. How can the point of our existence be to help each other? If we didn't exist we wouldn't need to. That was my thinking back then. Ah, I know better now. We Exist because of God's love and the purpose of helping each other is to demonstrate that love He has for us and to bring Him glory.
That is why there are so many of us. We are all here to help each other. We are made to connect with each other. Not just connect like as in to the Internet lol.But connect as in spiritually (because we are called into discipleship with one another), physically, (not to be alone, but develop friendships and have families), even to.... drum roll
Connect Emotionally. To see each other deep down for who we really are. To see each other's hearts. Epiphany? Hmmm...
No, no two people can ever be intimate (connected, understood by, known fully) with each other as a person can be with God. He knows our thoughts before we have them. He knows our past our present and our future. No one can know us like God. No human's love can be as deep as God's.
But can we look at another person and see past the surface? Can we choose to see into the depths of who a person really is and love them? Can we not only see, but Value another person's heart? After today I not only believe this is possible, I believe it is what we are made for.
