I have been having some days of sadness but I feel Jesus knows I have just been through too much. I have been praying before I go to bed about my torture. Jesus has been letting me know that he will heal me soon. He has told me that this fall and winter will be a healing time for me and that I just need to be as strong as I can be in the meantime. He said I have to be strong because I am remembering things from my torture. He said that my memories are because I was tortured a lot in the fall and winter. This time last year I was being tortured. I am praying to Jesus that he helps me stay strong. I know Jesus will help me be victorious over my past and that I just need to be calm as I can and to hang on.