God where do I start when i know I don't trust you, am weary of other Christians, and am angry and disenchanted? I need real answers and lots and lots of direction; which I know is not fair to ask of you. I know I can find m way back to you; but I need to be completely honest with the way i feel and it's not "pretty" or "acceptable" to many Christians. Bottom line: I love you and I know we can work this out. I know you love me but I'm very very confused. Please walk me through this.