The Road Trip

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I was so not ready today and I saw tables with red coverings and I know the shape, how they set up communion plates. I was so nervous about should I take it should I not. I tried to pray for God to make me worthy but having so many impulsive and bad thoughts, it was frightening. Still, I ended...
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I've been awake for a few minutes but it's still so weird and scary. It was sort of two parts; a challenge and monsters. The challenge had characters from shows, like I think the mentor guy from the Hunger Games was explaining the rules. I was standing on small, thin house frames with some...
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Today has been uneventful. Lately though I have felt disconnected from God and anxious. Duolingo's Korean course is projected to go into beta in a little over two weeks, and I might be in the Japanese alpha testing after all? I asked to be put in and thought thousands were doing it but I think...
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So tonight I was out running, listening to an old song (You can't catch/take me from the animated movie Spirit). I had some problems with blasphemous thoughts and saying "submit to me" instead of "help me submit" or "I submit to You" or something I should say. So sometime of mixing that up and...
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I have this bear I think I've had since I was a baby or very, very small child. It has a wind-up thing that you turn and it plays music. I have tried to Shazam the song to identify it and got something weird looking it up.... But this bear used to always put me to sleep. I can think of it over...
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It's already constant thoughts trying to come in and blaspheme. A scripture I was thinking about God answering this servant's prayer before he finished speaking in his heart, and I was like wow it's like that scripture that God already knows what we need before we ask then I was like; in his...
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I had blasphemous thoughts cursing against Jesus Christ and his holy blood reading a devotional. I ended up turning on the audio so I could finish without as many thoughts bursting in the second to last reading passage. I read for myself the last passage and exited but then suddenly this played...
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They seem to be having a gay pride party close to my apartment. I am reminded of the time I strayed into homosexuality and disbelief. I was afraid to be gay but ended up becoming convinced that I was a lesbian, and eventually allowed myself to be decieved and think homosexuality was okay. I...
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I had a one hour trip on a pirate-themed ship that was great. I thought out some things for a story I'm working on (not actual print, based off of a video game). Still.... I am questioning my salvation. I think I am too self-centered, careless, or sadistic. I think I need to take the love...
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I am feeling more secure today. Like I may go enjoy a cup of coffee and breakfast. I thought about it, I believe that Jesus is the Son of God, otherwise why would I take his words as true? Why would I believe there was salvation at all and fear I don't have it? I need to study the bible more as...
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Violin music helps me read the bible I think with fewer bad thoughts. It helps more than music in other languages because I'm learning languages and may get distracted by what lines I understand like in Meltdown, the line "Allegro Agitate" is so beautiful I always get distracted. I'm thinking I...
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A few months ago, I was sad and afraid of condemnation (apostasy, blasphemy, :( ), and I had SoundCloud on waiting for someone to pick me up from dance. I think I'd come across this song earlier, some people had mentioned Taemin having his own song apart from SHINee. It's called Press Your...
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They played Saul/Paul's story on 88.3, but I had to go pick up something and had to cut it off. Does anyone know where the host is who listens to 88.3 they get stories from? Or places with audio retellings? Like not YouVersion but like a radio play.
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For some humility I am verryyy vain and conceited sometimes. God allowed me to remember a verse, Luke 17:10 which says: “So you also, when you have done all that you were commanded, say, 'We are unworthy servants; we have only done what was our duty.'"” Gotta keep this in mind. I can't even do...

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