My Lessons Learned As A Growing Christian

I am imperfect. I have character flaws, many of them. I have been terribly selfish in the past but I have hope... hope that I can still change, be healed, and be used by God. I am still alive and breathing, the sun is still shining on my face. No time to waste.

I haven't posted on CF in a long time, maybe over a year. The past year has been pretty wild with my relationship with God with major ups and downs. Today I realized that God was doing a work in my heart and I saw some growth and I just said out loud "I'm so grateful for today" because of what...

Poem 34 4-14-2019 My sins have caused my back to bend over, my stubbornness is my own worst enemy. Although I am getting closer and closer. I can see the light, but I am thrown to the ground every time I reach for it. Lord, please make me into a different tree. Please rip these roots out...

I know everyone struggles with pride but the more God opens my eyes to how my pride hurts others, the more I am ashamed and sorrowful for things I have done in the past.... I am so sorry for people I've hurt in the past. I hate my sinful nature and I am fighting it. I don't want to hurt anyone...

When I first found God I read the Bible like 5 times in a year. Then I went back and forth reading the Bible, but not as much. But recently I've been really craving scripture again. I bought a portable Bible player that I keep in my car now. I've been listening to the entire Bible while I'm...

Poem 13 9-4-18 God has blessed me, with wisdom and understanding. All of life is vanity without God. There is nothing good in me except for God. Oh God, my sins are too great for me... Please help me to desire the right things. Why do I act allergic to God's blessings? It's like I'm on one side...

Ok so I've been a believer for almost 7 years. Basically, the past 7 years have been all over the place. I've been learning and changing slowly this whole time, but I never really truly surrendered to God fully. Some people drop their entire old life and surrender to Christ immediately, and some...

Okay, I have this thing where if I'm not in Christ and I'm not walking in His love then it's like my face goes blank or black or something. I can't really explain it. It's like I completely forget anything of who I am if I'm not walking in that love, it's like I dont even know what I look like...

A little over a week ago I listen to 1st Corinthians 3 about 10 to 15 or even 20 times in a row on the audio Bible on my phone. The first part says: "But I, brothers, could not address you as spiritual people, but as people of the flesh, as infants in Christ. I fed you with milk, not solid...

Father, Father I need to rip out this old tree Father, Father The roots of lust and greed Have grown so deep into this ground I’ve tried so hard to pull them out On my own, they take the best of me I need a wrecking ball Slamming inside my heart Breaking me all apart Tearing the old away Killing...

A poem I wrote Poem #2 **On desperation for humility and discipline** Oh God, how did I become like this? Why am I so blinded by my pride? How can I change? I feel like I need to be "better" than others in order to be saved and it manifests as pride. I don't understand righteousness fully...

I'd like to share my story of how I came to Christ because it's very interesting. I wasn't raised in a Christian Home although my mother was very loving in terms of human standards. I was never taught anything about the first Bible scripture but my mom tried her best to teach me to honor other...

I recently made a post about how I was feeling discouraged, but I honestly was just having a panic attack... and I was being ungrateful, and I apologize if I discouraged anyone. I don't glorify God like I should and God HAS done amazing things for me in the past 6 years, especially in the past...

I heard a sermon tonight while working about becoming childlike. Unless we become like little children, we wont enter the Kingdom of Heaven. I don't feel I have fully become childlike yet. I am trying to but years of pride and stubborn self-will has really taken a toll on my own soul. Getting...

I'm realizing what it means to be a slave to righteousness. To walk in the natural way of loving others no matter how others treat us because we fear God, not hardening our hearts no matter what. As soon as I get scared of being persecuted for righteousness sake, a spirit of fear comes over me...

"A new heart also will I give you, and a new spirit will I put within you: and I will take away the stony heart out of your flesh, and I will give you an heart of flesh. And I will put my spirit within you, and cause you to walk in my statutes, and ye shall keep my judgments, and do them."...

I definitely realize that I am a wretched man in need of saving. I see that. I have been a believer in Christ for 6 years now. But I have not fully come to the place to where I am like "OK, now it's time to fully surrender, because I cant do this on my own. I can't be righteous, I can't have...

So I'm about 6 years into my walk with Christ. This whole time God has been ministering to my heart and increasing my knowledge and understanding. I grew very quickly my first 2 years, but there's just always been something there holding me back from full surrender to God. Maybe I was too young...

Ever since I found Christ a little over 6 years ago, I've kind of been under a curse where I am in constant fear of not making it to heaven. I haven't lost my love for God in these 6 years, and I was immediately on fire for Jesus back then.... but it's taking me such a long time to heal from my...

I was recently trying to describe to someone what it's like trying to recover/get delivered from drug or alcohol addiction. I used the analogy that it's like an old tree stump in the ground and trying to pull it out... it doesn't just "come out" very easy, because the roots have grown down deep...