My Journey To Happiness

Dear Lord, on the last 24th of February, our trials have started. My husband is now officially jobless, and he has got a lupus diagnosis. The visa process looks difficult and uncertain, we will have to find a cosponsor. So, where is our miracle? My miracles is already here. All these trials...

Forgive me, Lord. Today You taught me an important lesson, and I do not want to forget it ever. I must thank this forum, too. Here I heard about a book called Frequency by Pastor Morris, it talks about the best way to find Your "frequency" and hear from You. And I bought it, because I wanted to...

It has been such a long journey until now, Lord. My husband's symptoms got very severe. Everything got severe. Financial hardships, the weight of solitude, the weight of life in general. I have been climbing for such a long time, Lord. It has been 50 years of climbing, so far. I meet people who...

How many things have been happening in these last months. I know You, Lord. I know You enough to understand that I have just to trust You. I should not be shaken by this storm. My husband's illness, the fact that doctors don't know what is wrong with him, the uncertainties such as FMLA and...

I praise You now in the middle of a bleak, bleak day, knowing that I will see You coming. Again. No my husband has not got lupus, no. Yes we will have provision. Yes the visa will be approved. Yes the registered letter I got today is nothing to worry about. I praise You in the middle of the...

Dear Lord, this blog is a diary. It describes this journey, and it has been a difficult and scaring journey so far. But you know, Lord, I am always honest to You. I describe my true feelings here. I describe my doubts, my sadness. I have been disappointed because it looks like this somehow...

You are asking me to praise You, Lord. And I am trying. I am trying to praise You with this entry. Even if now everything is dark, I know I will see You again. Even if I walk with a lump in my throat, I know I will walk with the joy in my heart. Evfen if it looks like You have forgotten me, I...

This is my journey to happiness, and happiness is my goal. It has been a bumpy road so far. Even if the work problems were solved, in spite of a diagnosis of advanced rheumathoid arthritis , and with the doctor declaring my husband an invalid, his documents were not accepted for FMLA. Because...

I want to praise the Lord and all of you who prayed for me. My husband had troubles at his job. As I am applying for a visa it could have prevented us from being reunited. We were so worried and sad, for all the consequences. This is what happened. Because of the stress, my husband's pressure...

My fasting has ended. I have been left with a deep sense of peace. I am no more anxious about my husband's and my situation. I know, I feel that there is nothing to worry about. I have been given a new strength. I felt ready to commit to spend less time on social media. It has been a message I...

It has been hard today Lord. It has never been so hard. But I am going to keep my promise and fasting until midnight. I know You hear me. I know You have been watching my struggles today. But You have never disappointed me. You are not going to disappoint me this time. I need You. I need to see...

This is my second day of fasting. It looks even more silent than yesterday. Because today Burian, the Russian storm, arrived on my town. Tons of snow are falling down, schools are closed and I am forced to stay at home for at least three days. So, the whole world has become silent. But I know...

I am fasting today. I am used to fasting days being days of silence. There is silence all around me. No mails, no calls. It looks like I am invisible in a suspended reality. Friends are silent too. You, Lord, are silent. But I know You are watching me. I keep remembering the words of that...

This is the 3rd day of prayers. I have been praying privately, many people have prayed on this forum, my brothers at the church have prayed, and I have requested a 40 days prayers at The Wall. I received a very good advice on this forum today. My husband pretends that everything is okay, but his...