My First Blog Entry

Today I was suffering. I suffered remembering my ritual abuse. My torturer Kevin was very cruel to me. He was not compassionate towards me at all. He did not like that I am humble and gentle and kind. He talked about the devil to me often and told me he worshiped the devil and that he hated...

This past weekend I was in Virginia with Caleb and Caleb's family and my parents. It was a beautiful time. Me and Caleb stayed in a spare room. We slept peacefully. We had wonderful meals. We listened to the rain. I had some suffering in my heart. Caleb read the Bible with me and explained to...

I am in the mountains with Caleb, my parents and his parents and we are relaxing and watching Highway to Heaven. It is an older series on Netflix and it is about angels. It is lovely. I love the simpleness of the show and the expressive and compassionate acting. It is a wonderful show that I...

I had a soothing day today in the mountains with Caleb, my father, mother and Caleb's parents. It was raining and very soothing. Me and Caleb and my father went on a walk in the rain using umbrellas. It was very peaceful. Me and Caleb worked on one of my stories. We spent time relaxing together...

Me, my mom and Caleb are in the mountains this weekend. My dad will be driving here to be with us too. It has been beautiful being here so far and very soothing. It is wonderful to be with Caleb's family. We had Chinese food for lunch and beef stew for dinner. It was very soothing. Me and Caleb...

I am with Caleb this weekend with my mom at Caleb's parents home in Virginia. We will be here for a few days. It is beautiful in the mountains and very soothing. It has been a peaceful time in the mountains and very soothing. I love being in Caleb's families home. They have a beautiful home. We...

Today I slept in late. Caleb went to work as he does each day. I did chores today and went on a walk and went to Walmart. It was a peaceful day. It soothed my soul. Caleb is home now and we have been relaxing. I was reading about my personality some online which soothed me. Caleb was reading...

I thought of a childhood friend today. Her name is Emily. She is beautiful. She has caramel colored skin and long wavy brownish gold hair. She was my friend when I was a child. Her nickname was Sunny and mine was Rainy. She contacted me today by email and told me she loves me very much and that...

Today was a beautiful day. I went to church with parents and Caleb. There was a beautiful sermon. Afterwards there was a picnic at church and we ate. It was lovely. After church me and Caleb took a nap. It was a soothing nap. I dreamed of Heaven. Caleb held me. He made me feel safe and...

Today was a soothing day. I was with my family and Caleb today. I went to CVS today and got some Estroven. I have a deficiency in lecithin. I take soy to help myself heal. I love taking the soy. Caleb went to get soy with me. It was lovely to get more and each day I take one. I relaxed with...

Today was a beautiful day. It was quiet day. I prayed for the ending of torture. I prayed and thought about Mary mother of God. The Lord told my soul that Mary is like me and that she did suffer seeing Him tortured and that she was a victim of torture too. I was soothed thinking of Mary and her...

Today I thought about mother Mary. I prayed to the Lord and he told me that it was okay to think of Mother Mary some. I am Christian but baptized Catholic. The Lord told me that Mary is his mother and it is okay for Christians to think of Mary. The Lord told me that Mary is a very gentle and...

I read beautiful books today on sexual abuse. They helped me feel soothed. I have been reading about how sexual abusers harm women and how they make them feel guilty for them being raped and that they make the women feel like the are evil and different from other people so that they can control...

Today was a blessed day. I went to church today with Caleb and my parents. There was a beautiful sermon and I was touched by other people in the church who hugged me and Caleb. After church I read some with Caleb and we took a walk. We had a quiet day. It was peaceful and soothing. We read...

Today was a beautiful day. I went to Bible study with my mom today. It was very lovely. Women spoke about their experiences in life with Christ. We had chicken, meatballs, salad and macaroni. We had deserts. I had a cupcake. We had lemonade and ice tea. We had a peaceful bible study. When I came...

Today was a beautiful day. I had a doctors appointment. My weight has been better which has helped my heart very much. I feel more myself which is so soothing to me. I went to a University with my mom to see if I might take a class there. I am looking at a cyber security class. My parents...

Today was a beautiful day. I went to a doctors appointment to have my body checked. It soothed me to have the doctor talk with me. I went to bible study this evening with my mom at my church. It was a wonderful Bible study. We talked about faith. The words soothed me. I had a dinner of pasta and...

Today was a beautiful day. I did house chores and relaxed and did some work I had to do. I prayed to God for the ending of torture. I prayed that women torture victims would have peace and know they are beautiful. I prayed to God thanking him for Caleb and his love for me and how he is helping...

I had a quiet day today. Caleb stayed home with me today because he wanted to rest some. He has been working very hard at his construction job. It was wonderful to have him home. Me and Caleb slept in late and we watched the rain. We had lunch and relaxed together. We read and talked. I missed...

Today was a beautiful day. I relaxed with Caleb and read and did chores. We took a nap together and took a walk with my father. I prayed against torture today in my heart and with Caleb. I prayed that torture victims be soothed and comforted because they are very beautiful. I prayed that torture...