My First Blog Entry

Today I thought about dolls. Me and Caleb brought 2 dollhouse books on kindle last night and spent time looking at them. They had beautiful doll rooms that were very soothing to look at. I imagined my doll May in her home and playing with her doll friends. I imagine May in a beautiful dress...

I thought of dolls today and doll therapy. The Lord has been using dolls to help me heal from my torture. I have three dolls. Their names are May, Lavender and Mara. My favorite doll is May but I love them all very much. May looks like me and the Lord gave her to me so I could feel my innocence...

Today I had a peaceful day. I prayed to the Lord about how he is using dolls to heal me and others. He told me that dolls will be used to heal people in Heaven. He told me that I will have my beautiful dolls in Heaven and play with them everyday. He told me that there will be doll books in...

Today was a quiet day. I suffered in my heart some. I suffered remembering how I was called evil many times in my torture. I was raped and called evil over and over and it hurt my heart. I was raped and tormented by Kevin and Silver. I was told I was not a pure soul. I was told that I was...

My friend Morgan came to visit me yesterday. I have known her since I was a little girl. We watched Under the Tuscan Sun and we went to the park. It was very soothing and a blessing to see her. Today me and Caleb slept in and missed church. My dad was not feeling well and he slept in too. Only...

I had a quiet day today. I prayed today to the Lord for the ending of torture. I cried some because of memories of my torture. I prayed that the Lord would comfort torture victims.

I had a quiet day today. I prayed today and thought about the Lord and about His love for me. The Lord told me He would comfort my soul. He told me that He loves me very much and knows how sensitive I am and how soft I am and the pain in my heart. The Lord told me that He is protecting me each...

Today I had a soft day. Caleb was at work today. I worked on my story. I am working on a story about a torture victim healing. I did some chores today. I read the Bible some today. The Lord spoke to my heart and told me He was protecting me and that He would protect me each day and that He loved...

I had a quiet rainy day today. It was peaceful. I spent the day working on one of my stories. I took a nap as well. I prayed about the ending of torture. I prayed to the Lord thanking Him for this love for me. I prayed thanking Him for His protection of me and my loved ones and Caleb.

Today I had a beautiful time at church. I was with my parents and Caleb. I wore a long gray skirt and black top and gray sweater and my cross and black sandals. I wore my hair half up and tied it in a small bun and the rest of my hair down. Recently I got my hair done and it feels very soft and...

I had a peaceful day today. Me, my parents and Caleb went to an outdoor thrift store and then to a outdoor fair. We looked around the thrift store and there were beautiful Victorian style furniture. They had very beautiful pieces of furniture. We then walked at an outdoor fair. I looked at...

Me and my grandma went out today to a nearby outdoor mall. It was very soothing. We drove past a beautiful church called St. Ignatius. It is where I was baptized as a baby. My grandma is Catholic and makes the sign of the cross when she passes a church. I did so too. I love the church, it is...

I had a peaceful day today. I went to counseling with Caleb. We had to do the session today instead of Thursday because I have an outing to go to with my mom and dad and Caleb tomorrow. Counseling was soothing to me. Caleb and I spoke with my counselor about my torture and she told us that we...

I had a peaceful day today. I relaxed today. It rained today and soothed my soul very much. I suffered some remembering my ritual abuse. I remembered that I was raped cruelly and that I was told that I was evil over and over when I was raped. I suffered all day hearing that I was evil. When I...

I read Psalms 122 verse 6, " Pray for the peace of Jerusalem: they shall prosper that love thee." The Lord told my soul that He will heal the earth and it will be a beautiful place that is loving and safe and kind. The Lord told my soul that those who love Him and are gentle and that He blesses...

Today was a soft day. I had a quiet day. I was with my mom and did some chores in my room. I took a long nap today and read. It soothed me. I was thinking about the beauty of Christ and how gentle and kind he is. The Lord had me think about how soft and gentle He is and that He loves me deeply...

Today I went to church with my parents and Caleb. It was a wonderful church service. Afterwards my dad, Caleb and I went to pick up my friend Travia. She is a friend I have known since college and I love her very much. Me, Caleb and my dad picked up Chipotle. When we went home we ate then Caleb...

I visited my brother Nathan with my parents and Caleb today. He has a new apartment in Alexandria, VA. It is very lovely, small and humble. I love his apartment. We prayed for Nathan to have peace and be protected in his apartment. Afterward me, my parents and Caleb went to get something to eat...

Today was a beautiful day. I thought about how beautiful Heaven will be today. I thought about how beautiful Christianity is and that in Heaven we all will go to church and sing beautifully to the Lord and sing hymns and gather together and read the Word. The Lord talked to my heart today about...

Today was a soothing day but I missed my counseling appointment. I will meet with her next with with Caleb. Today was soothing. I read and did household chores and took a nap. I thought about my story I am working on. I thought about the Lord and His beauty and Mary his mother. It was a blessed day.