Far-side-of-the-moon's Blog

My aunt called me not too long ago..she's also my boss...but she really blessed me with this call, she was telling me how proud she was of me that I was moving forward with my life and also told me that... The conference we went to back in July was significant... She said once you're in gods...

I'm finally becoming the person I've always envisioned myself being and that makes me feel so good, very satisfying. I have my license, a 2nd job (Im a housekeeper yay!!!) almost done with school...I'm just writing my essay for my program right now...and it makes my eyes water how much im...

..I'm doing a LOT better ... I don't live in the anxiety/depression forums anymore... I think once I saw progress with my life. Job,Working+License... I felt less stuck and blue. I'm just happy things finally changed ,my mood is better and my threads aren't all painted with a blue brush...

I'm sitting in on a meeting right now with a client ... Don't want to say too much ...but I will say working with people with disabilities... Physical and mental and seeing how God works through my boss ... As he told them to start the business they have now (he put it on their heart) ,when...

Before I leave leave lol ... I want to leave on a good note. I got my license!!!! :) It was so funny because my instructor was the sweetest guy ever...he actually taught me how to parallel park as I was taking the test xD...and I ran over a cone and he was like since I didn't feel it that's...

I've delayed my leaving for a bit...I'm still gonna go..but I wanted to post this... This is such a weird occurrence....money really does seem to be following me...like appearing out of nowhere... Okay I checked my little blue envelope thingy that holds my saved money... I had 40 in there. I...

I don't know if I'll be here anymore. Not anything anyone did..,everyone was lovely here :) Idk I just feel i think this place has served its purpose ...you know ...and was just for a season anyway. Plus, I come on here alot so there's that.... But yeah...that's it... I hope the rest of...

...I believe in you, I believe in us... I hope we can make it through this duration... Bc I want this so bad because its something I never had before.....and I don't want it to end...I don't want it taken from me... I just want it to last.. When I feel nervous its because I have something...

I remember when I was a new Christian I used to have dreams about people...sometimes in they'd tell me what they're struggling with... My former pastor told me that I was supposed to pray for them. Well since our falling out and big gap with God i didn't do much of anything.... I'm thinking...

This post can't get any simpler than that. People will show you who they are in a matter of seconds sometime if not then...they'll slowly reveal themselves.. When I tell you to believe every awkward, weird word that comes out of their mouth or action that they do.. Believe it.... Because...

Man I have so much to say today. I'm off the clock so I have time to write. First I want to talk about my close call with almost not going to school this summer. Okay so my advisor over the OTA program was responsible for registering me since I'm new to the College...meaning I couldn't...

... I think some people are meant to be alone and that's me... I'm just gonna pray God's serenity prayer so I can let go of the things I can't change. I don't know if there's someone special out there for me ....but I don't want ,looking for it to consume me. I just want to be happy...

I hate people who waste my time. My time is valuable and I can't get that back... Just be up front , I appreciate honesty. I think the worst part is I trust too much for the same crap to happen, I hate getting emotionally invested for nothing to come out of it... I'm tired of guys and...

So yeah... I have my check and its sitting here lol Thought of give you guys and update show you I'm still here. And I'm doing better..I'm alot happier thanks to friends :) I'm still thinking of contacting my old friend the one that has bpd. But keeping him at a distance like contact him...

Well, I'm at work and man I swear...making calls gives me so much anxiety. I can't control it, I mean I can do my job but I hate this nervousness I feel like just a bundle of nerves. I need to overcome this, but going against these feelings feels like a having a heart attack... I swear ...

I'm getting back into reading the bible. I think I did well, I was looking in James...I want to study faith and love...my weak points. And I really studied it.. I want to immerse myself in gospel and worship music and perhaps sing to god. I have an issue with that bc I don't like my singing...

Well I'm pretty much off the clock. Had a "passionate " talk with my coworker and her issue/grievances with the job we work at and low salary pay.. I mean I get up but its like goooshhh I could tells she was frustrated by how she was coming off.., Then that triggered the memory of my friend...

... I was finally able to sleep fully after my friend's incident. And though i miss him... I'm starting to adjust without him. Still miss him...but I thank God for keeping me out of harms way. I'm still debating on whether or not to keep the gifts he gave me... Looking at them makes me a bit...

For some reason I keep seeing my aunt in my dreams, even when I don't think about her...I don't know why...I also dreamt abt other things. I have difficulty telling,whether God may trying to be telling,me something vs. A dream being simply a dream... I mean I know not every dream means...

Out of nowhere , the guy I was supposed to go on a date with texted me out of no where. He explained he was very busy and not with other people like I assumed... He was very sweet saying that he sees something in me that he's attracted to, that he wants to see if it can work.. HOWEVER...