Days In The Life Of Singing

I've been doing lots of thinking and praying over something. I seriously believe it may be the only way for me to truly heal and deal with some stuff that I've pushed down so far inside of me that it hasn't been dealt with and it's just stuck begging to get out. I seriously don't know what else...

I'm sick of pretending that everything is okay. I'm not alright. I know this. I feel like my life is spinning out of control with no way of stopping it. I'm soooo sick of feeling this way. I just feel like no matter what I do it's just.....not helping. It's never good enough. I'm never enough. I...

Job hunting sucks. Just thought I'd throw this out here. I'm so sick of this! Sick of not knowing what in the world I'm supposed to be doing. I'm sooooo sick of being in the rut. But how do I get myself out of it? Someone please tell me.

Tis been a rough one. My depression is flaring up today. It's not nice. I had a breakdown for the first time in awhile. I just feel nobody gives a crap about me anymore. It's just.....wearing me down. Wearing me out. :( :sigh:

Hello everyone. :wave: I've been rather discouraged lately. Just with my singleness and life basically. It's just.....so frustrating. I've been reminded this week that I'm a love seeker. I long to be loved, adored and cared for. Not by a family or friend but by a guy I can call my own and I...

Well, tis Monday once again. Another long week is ahead of me. A week with no friends and jobless most likely. I have to go to my WW meeting in a little while and quite frankly not feeling up to it today. I've gained for the past 2 weeks. I'm highly frustrated and unmotivated. My home scale...

I was talking to a friend yesterday about their journey to giving God their desire for love. Twas an amazing story/testimony. Sometimes I just wish the desire would just fade away. Seriously I do. It's just.....exhausting. It wears me out. Emotionally mostly. I'm just tired of all this...

Love that song by Coldplay. It's basically my feelings right now. I just need to let a few things off my chest and it may not be pretty so bare with me. Things I've Learned Lately: I'm a attention seeker and sometimes I go to great lenghs to get it. I'm lonely I'm friendless in RL I'm...

Alright, first of all I want to say sorry for my blog yesterday. I had a horrible day and I was just letting off some steam. As some of you know I'm currently on Weight Watchers and yesterday I weighed in and found out I'd gained a couple pounds. I was very upset but I'm feeling some better...

Sometimes I wish food wasn't nessesary to live. I just wish we didn't have to eat maybe then I would look half way decent. Ugh! I totally hate myself right now. Why must I be overweight?:cry::sigh::(:help:

So I here I sit once again at my computer spending countless hours just browsing the web. *sighs* I want soooooo bad to do something with my life. For the Lord. Just for anybody but myself. I'm sick of doing things for myself. I'm tired of focusing on myself. I'm just.......tired. Also...

So yesterday I decided to give my HG another try. I went and honestly didn't have a good time at all. I just felt so......left out and just disconnected from everybody. We were sharing stories of how the group has helped us and everybody had something to share but me. Honestly, I had nothing to...

Well, the job search continues. I applied for one more today that I found online. Hopefully something will open up soon! Music Ministry has been creeping into my head recently. It has yet to go on its way. Maybe the Lord is trying to tell me something? Could be, that's usually the way it...

I'm sorda feeling rather bummed right now. HG is tonight and quite honestly I don't wanna go. Saturday just flew me for a loop and It hurt me more than I let on. I know I shouldn't it take it personally but I can't help it. Just when I thought......just when I thought a group of people actually...

Do you ever just get sick and tired of people? I'm feeling that way today. After yeterday's little happening I'm just so....something. Frustrated and hurt. In case you don't know what' I'm talking about you can read my "A Tad Ticked Off And Hurt" Thread in the Singles Forum. Thing is I've...

Well, I guess it's my old blog has been deleted? That really makes me sad! Well what can ya do... It's official. I'm out of school and I'm happy about that. Now the job search begins. I dread it a lot. I'm already tired of it really. lol! I've applied to about 6 places now. One being my church...