My head is spinning today. So many thoughts, and God has been working on healing me. I am realizing how exhausted I am, and everything that has happened to me is starting to sink in. I'm no longer in a state of constant shock.
But I was reminded of 1 Peter 5:10 earlier today.
"And the God of all grace, who called you to his eternal glory in Christ, after you have suffered a little while, will himself restore you and make you strong, firm and steadfast."
I read this verse back in summer, when I was struggling so much, and I knew God was going to restore me at some point. He also gave me the verse Luke 22:32.
And now He is restoring me, or rather He has been restoring me. No more misery.
I used to know Scripture really well, and then it was like I couldn't remember it clearly suddenly last year, when I got hurt, and then when I fell, and now it's all coming back to me.
And I have such a deeper understanding of it. The Bible has been coming alive to me during my trials. I'm really happy and excited. And I get to reboot and God can build me up again, but this time coming from a much stronger foundation.
On another note, I've had a few days for myself. I wrote about my living situation in this thread:
Please pray for my unsaved family
My mother and sister is out of town until next week, and I have had lots of time to spend alone with God. I've been singing and dancing to Him, and praying a lot. And I have been crying my eyes out, dealing with all of the trauma and healing my wounded soul.
God is amazing! The more I'm learning, the more I'm seeing, the more wonderful He becomes to me. And the softer my heart becomes, the more freely I am able to love. I realized that yesterday, because I felt such deep fear for my family, coming from love that I had never felt before. It hurt deep in my soul as I realized how much they are struggling and hurting. I am going to be doing a lot more for them.
Praise God the Father and the Son Jesus Christ! Amen!
But I was reminded of 1 Peter 5:10 earlier today.
"And the God of all grace, who called you to his eternal glory in Christ, after you have suffered a little while, will himself restore you and make you strong, firm and steadfast."
I read this verse back in summer, when I was struggling so much, and I knew God was going to restore me at some point. He also gave me the verse Luke 22:32.
And now He is restoring me, or rather He has been restoring me. No more misery.
I used to know Scripture really well, and then it was like I couldn't remember it clearly suddenly last year, when I got hurt, and then when I fell, and now it's all coming back to me.
And I have such a deeper understanding of it. The Bible has been coming alive to me during my trials. I'm really happy and excited. And I get to reboot and God can build me up again, but this time coming from a much stronger foundation.
On another note, I've had a few days for myself. I wrote about my living situation in this thread:
Please pray for my unsaved family
My mother and sister is out of town until next week, and I have had lots of time to spend alone with God. I've been singing and dancing to Him, and praying a lot. And I have been crying my eyes out, dealing with all of the trauma and healing my wounded soul.
God is amazing! The more I'm learning, the more I'm seeing, the more wonderful He becomes to me. And the softer my heart becomes, the more freely I am able to love. I realized that yesterday, because I felt such deep fear for my family, coming from love that I had never felt before. It hurt deep in my soul as I realized how much they are struggling and hurting. I am going to be doing a lot more for them.
Praise God the Father and the Son Jesus Christ! Amen!
