I've had it backwards all along...but thank God for giving me the grace to do a Holy Hour, an hour a day in front of the Blessed Sacrament, an hour a day of uninterrupted prayer! So much peace has entered my soul since I started this.
Now I'm realizing something I've had backwards all along!
I know I'm called to marriage; that's still certain. But I always thought of my relationship with God as "good practice for marriage"; the sacrifices I make for my beloved, the time commitment, changing my schedule, all things I do for God, all things I'll do for my wife some day.
But God's love isn't a warm-up for human love; no, it's the opposite! My relationship with God isn't to prepare me for my wife; it's so that my wife can be brought into the relationship I already have with God! I need a relationship with the perfect lover, so that when I do meet the woman I should be with, she can be more fully brought into God's love, too!
If this doesn't make sense, please pray about it, God may reveal this truth to you in some other way. 'Till then, I need sleep; peace out & pray always! God bless you all!
Now I'm realizing something I've had backwards all along!
I know I'm called to marriage; that's still certain. But I always thought of my relationship with God as "good practice for marriage"; the sacrifices I make for my beloved, the time commitment, changing my schedule, all things I do for God, all things I'll do for my wife some day.
But God's love isn't a warm-up for human love; no, it's the opposite! My relationship with God isn't to prepare me for my wife; it's so that my wife can be brought into the relationship I already have with God! I need a relationship with the perfect lover, so that when I do meet the woman I should be with, she can be more fully brought into God's love, too!
If this doesn't make sense, please pray about it, God may reveal this truth to you in some other way. 'Till then, I need sleep; peace out & pray always! God bless you all!
