I haven't written in a while, because I just came back from my summer vacation, where I went to the US to visit a friend, and I decided not to post anything while I was there. I had a wonderful time, but God also used the three weeks to send me through some intense trials that really did the trick to get me out of my shell and a lot of my social fears. It was perfect. It was everything I needed! God set me free from a lot during the days before I left for the trip, and I felt really close to Him, but I had no idea what God had in store for me. I just knew that everything needed to change, and everything did change.
I can't share everything that happened here, because it would be a way too long a story to share, too many details, but I'll try and share as much as the Lord leads me to. The friend that I visited was a good friend from CF, WilliamBo, and I had been ministering to him for a year before I went over to see him. He has a past that had left him struggling for many, many years, and his struggles never seemed to end. There were childhood issues, pain and fear, addictions and sins, rebellion and self-will, and much confusion, and spirits that needed to be cast out. I asked God to let me use my summer vacation to fly over there and get him delivered. I did. And God really pulled through for Bo, and for me.
We decided to take a road trip together, because I love to travel and Bo had spent many, many years in depression and isolation, and he really needed to see the world around him. We took his car and drove wherever the Lord led us, and we were both so blessed. We went camping (in separate tents, don't worry, God kept us pure) and I learned how to fish!
I have wanted to learn how to fish for such a long time, it was such a blessing! I only caught really small fish, but that was enough for me. I'm a small girl and I wouldn't have been able to handle anything bigger probably anyway. Praise God, He made me so happy!
We started in Tennessee, then drove through Georgia, then through Florida and back to Tennessee through Alabama, and we saw a lot of wonderful places, had amazing moments, sudden blessings, big and small. And I got to talk to people, which helped me overcome my social fears. Praise God, I love America! I know that there is a lot of evil in the US, and that it is getting worse and worse every day, but it isn't as sinful as Sweden, that's for sure. I saw the name of Jesus everywhere we went, and I have only seen His name on few occasions over here except in the churches. I know that the South is much more Christian than everywhere else, and that is where God sent me, and it was an amazing blessing to feel that free without having angry people staring at my cross necklace or mocking me everywhere I go.
And then there were the trials. I don't know if I can share everything that happened here on CF, because I feel that there is too much private information about Bo that I believe that he should share personally when he is ready. But let's just say that I had to come out of my shell, and quickly, because I was alone in the wilderness with a man that had hundreds of demons, and Satan kept attacking us. We weren't attacked by bears or got lost or anything like that, this was an entirely spiritual battle, but in which I had to rely on Jesus completely, so Satan wouldn't overcome both of us. I learned how to stay completely focused on Christ, how to love someone despite every one of their flaws being revealed, and how to self-sacrifice to the point where I completely forgot about my self, and how to stay fearless and steadfast in faith, wearing my Armor and my Sword, trusting in God to pull me through the fire, and I learned how to stay completely firm in my authority in Christ. It was a struggle, and a huge one too, my flesh and evil spirits were constantly trying to get me to back down, but the Lord has given me such determination, apparently nothing will stop me once the Holy Spirit moves me.
And Bo got better and better. By the end of the trip he was taking a stand against Satan, casting out the spirits himself, and all I could do was pray and think "I'm so proud of him" knowing that those words did not just come from myself, but from the Holy Spirit. He has yet to completely come out of his own shell, but he is getting there. The Lord has amazing plans for his future, I know that for sure, and I can't wait to see what they are!
We were back in his hometown and we went sight-seeing and he was smiling, and I took a picture of him. When he saw the photo his automatic reaction was "Wow! I have never smiled before!!!" That was the best moment of the trip! I got to see the real him, the new creation that God has created in him, come out from behind years of oppression, and him feeling freedom for probably the first time in his life. Nothing can take that away from him now. Christ is doing so much for him! Praise Him! I was amazed and filled with so much joy!
And my joy and amazement didn't end with Bo.
Bo lives at a motel (and not in the best area), and there was a bed bug infestation. I got bit all over (and by sand fleas, mosquitoes, ants, a green horse fly, and only God knows what else, there are terrors over in that country...). That was a blessing to me though, because I got so uncomfortable I was constantly on edge and ready for anything. AND I had to go to the laundromat the day before I went home to wash all of my clothes. There was a man in there, who I started talking to. I won't go into details, out of respect for him, but he started flirting with me heavily and instead of fleeing I was praying for him. This man could barely speak properly, like he couldn't find the right words to use and he spoke like a child, and I felt such deep compassion. I thought that I would just pray for him and then never see him again, but that wasn't God's plan. Suddenly he asked me what I do, and we started talking about God (he was wearing a cross), and he asked me if I was doing any work for God, and I explained that God was using me to do deliverance at the moment (although there is so much more to it), and then I saw something happen in him, and he asked me if I could cast out his evil spirits. We talked a little about God, and his spirits started manifesting in his face, and then the Lord gave me the words and I cast out those spirits in Jesus name, and I felt completely comfortable doing it. They left and he then crying tears of joy, praising God. I prayed over him and the Lord healed him. Something terribly evil left him and his mind was healed. He started talking normally and prayed to Jesus out loud! I have seen God do mighty wonders, heal people and deliver them from evil, but that moment took the breath out of me I was so awestruck! Praise Him! The way God works is amazing! We need more of Him, and so much less of ourselves!
I never thought that God would use me like that! Not in public like that, not with strangers, and there was even an old lady watching us! And it was such a beautiful moment. Every trial I've been through, every doubt and fear I've had to battle and every time I've been persecuted or hated, it is all worth it! Praise the Lord! It is everything that I have dreamed about since I got saved, only so much better, because I've been seeing it through lenses of pride in my head, but in that moment, there was no pride in me left, or fear, all I could see was Jesus and a man in need of healing. And it was real. Sooo real! Praise the Lord! I cannot find the words to speak!
I'm exhausted after this trip, but blessed and transformed in many, many ways. I wish that I could share more. I wish I could share my entire testimony at this point, and everything in it, all the visions and the prophecies, every revelation that the Lord has shown me, all the victories I've seen in Christ, but it's not ready to be shared just yet. One step at a time, I can't rush ahead without Him.
Let's just say God broke through so many of my issues, I'm ready for anything, and those aren't empty words. I was so afraid that I would lose control or be overcome by fear once I started doing real ministry irl and not just online, but God isn't letting that happen! I can't wait to see what He has in store for me for the future. Looking back at what has happened so far, and the work that He has been equipping me for, I can say for sure that it's gonna be a lot more than I can imagine right now, and much more than I can handle on my own, and that it will all be to God's Glory!
I just realized that it's the Fourth of July as I'm posting this. Well, God Bless America! I wish I could have stayed a lot longer, but God has work for me to do in Sweden. I want to come back though.
Father, thank You, thank You, thank You, thank You, thank You, thank You, thank You! You are the Most High God, more amazing and wonderful than anything I have ever experienced and could have ever imagined! Your works are glorious! Thank You for being here for us, for your Grace and Mercy and the healing and deliverance that You give us every day, as we continue to love You because of who You are! Thank You for sending us Your Only Son Jesus Christ whose sacrifice enabled us to know You, despite everything that we have done to destroy the world that You have given to us!
Thank You for everything that You have done for me, and everything that You have done for others, and I ask that You continue to use me according to Your perfect will and perfect purposes! I can't give you more than myself, but I ask that You keep refining me as You have been and keep giving me more of You so I can keep living for You! God, I love You so much! Praise You forever and ever! I can't wait to see You one day, but while I'm here, I will go wherever You lead me! YOUR WILL BE DONE! In Jesus' name, amen!
I can't share everything that happened here, because it would be a way too long a story to share, too many details, but I'll try and share as much as the Lord leads me to. The friend that I visited was a good friend from CF, WilliamBo, and I had been ministering to him for a year before I went over to see him. He has a past that had left him struggling for many, many years, and his struggles never seemed to end. There were childhood issues, pain and fear, addictions and sins, rebellion and self-will, and much confusion, and spirits that needed to be cast out. I asked God to let me use my summer vacation to fly over there and get him delivered. I did. And God really pulled through for Bo, and for me.
We decided to take a road trip together, because I love to travel and Bo had spent many, many years in depression and isolation, and he really needed to see the world around him. We took his car and drove wherever the Lord led us, and we were both so blessed. We went camping (in separate tents, don't worry, God kept us pure) and I learned how to fish!
I have wanted to learn how to fish for such a long time, it was such a blessing! I only caught really small fish, but that was enough for me. I'm a small girl and I wouldn't have been able to handle anything bigger probably anyway. Praise God, He made me so happy!We started in Tennessee, then drove through Georgia, then through Florida and back to Tennessee through Alabama, and we saw a lot of wonderful places, had amazing moments, sudden blessings, big and small. And I got to talk to people, which helped me overcome my social fears. Praise God, I love America!
I know that there is a lot of evil in the US, and that it is getting worse and worse every day, but it isn't as sinful as Sweden, that's for sure. I saw the name of Jesus everywhere we went, and I have only seen His name on few occasions over here except in the churches. I know that the South is much more Christian than everywhere else, and that is where God sent me, and it was an amazing blessing to feel that free without having angry people staring at my cross necklace or mocking me everywhere I go.And then there were the trials. I don't know if I can share everything that happened here on CF, because I feel that there is too much private information about Bo that I believe that he should share personally when he is ready. But let's just say that I had to come out of my shell, and quickly, because I was alone in the wilderness with a man that had hundreds of demons, and Satan kept attacking us. We weren't attacked by bears or got lost or anything like that, this was an entirely spiritual battle, but in which I had to rely on Jesus completely, so Satan wouldn't overcome both of us. I learned how to stay completely focused on Christ, how to love someone despite every one of their flaws being revealed, and how to self-sacrifice to the point where I completely forgot about my self, and how to stay fearless and steadfast in faith, wearing my Armor and my Sword, trusting in God to pull me through the fire, and I learned how to stay completely firm in my authority in Christ. It was a struggle, and a huge one too, my flesh and evil spirits were constantly trying to get me to back down, but the Lord has given me such determination, apparently nothing will stop me once the Holy Spirit moves me.
And Bo got better and better. By the end of the trip he was taking a stand against Satan, casting out the spirits himself, and all I could do was pray and think "I'm so proud of him" knowing that those words did not just come from myself, but from the Holy Spirit. He has yet to completely come out of his own shell, but he is getting there. The Lord has amazing plans for his future, I know that for sure, and I can't wait to see what they are!
We were back in his hometown and we went sight-seeing and he was smiling, and I took a picture of him. When he saw the photo his automatic reaction was "Wow! I have never smiled before!!!"
That was the best moment of the trip! I got to see the real him, the new creation that God has created in him, come out from behind years of oppression, and him feeling freedom for probably the first time in his life. Nothing can take that away from him now. Christ is doing so much for him! Praise Him! I was amazed and filled with so much joy!And my joy and amazement didn't end with Bo.
Bo lives at a motel (and not in the best area), and there was a bed bug infestation. I got bit all over (and by sand fleas, mosquitoes, ants, a green horse fly, and only God knows what else, there are terrors over in that country...). That was a blessing to me though, because I got so uncomfortable I was constantly on edge and ready for anything. AND I had to go to the laundromat the day before I went home to wash all of my clothes. There was a man in there, who I started talking to. I won't go into details, out of respect for him, but he started flirting with me heavily and instead of fleeing I was praying for him. This man could barely speak properly, like he couldn't find the right words to use and he spoke like a child, and I felt such deep compassion. I thought that I would just pray for him and then never see him again, but that wasn't God's plan. Suddenly he asked me what I do, and we started talking about God (he was wearing a cross), and he asked me if I was doing any work for God, and I explained that God was using me to do deliverance at the moment (although there is so much more to it), and then I saw something happen in him, and he asked me if I could cast out his evil spirits. We talked a little about God, and his spirits started manifesting in his face, and then the Lord gave me the words and I cast out those spirits in Jesus name, and I felt completely comfortable doing it. They left and he then crying tears of joy, praising God. I prayed over him and the Lord healed him. Something terribly evil left him and his mind was healed. He started talking normally and prayed to Jesus out loud! I have seen God do mighty wonders, heal people and deliver them from evil, but that moment took the breath out of me I was so awestruck! Praise Him! The way God works is amazing! We need more of Him, and so much less of ourselves!
I never thought that God would use me like that! Not in public like that, not with strangers, and there was even an old lady watching us! And it was such a beautiful moment. Every trial I've been through, every doubt and fear I've had to battle and every time I've been persecuted or hated, it is all worth it! Praise the Lord! It is everything that I have dreamed about since I got saved, only so much better, because I've been seeing it through lenses of pride in my head, but in that moment, there was no pride in me left, or fear, all I could see was Jesus and a man in need of healing. And it was real. Sooo real! Praise the Lord! I cannot find the words to speak!
I'm exhausted after this trip, but blessed and transformed in many, many ways. I wish that I could share more. I wish I could share my entire testimony at this point, and everything in it, all the visions and the prophecies, every revelation that the Lord has shown me, all the victories I've seen in Christ, but it's not ready to be shared just yet. One step at a time, I can't rush ahead without Him.
Let's just say God broke through so many of my issues, I'm ready for anything, and those aren't empty words. I was so afraid that I would lose control or be overcome by fear once I started doing real ministry irl and not just online, but God isn't letting that happen!
I can't wait to see what He has in store for me for the future. Looking back at what has happened so far, and the work that He has been equipping me for, I can say for sure that it's gonna be a lot more than I can imagine right now, and much more than I can handle on my own, and that it will all be to God's Glory!I just realized that it's the Fourth of July as I'm posting this. Well, God Bless America!
I wish I could have stayed a lot longer, but God has work for me to do in Sweden. I want to come back though.Father, thank You, thank You, thank You, thank You, thank You, thank You, thank You! You are the Most High God, more amazing and wonderful than anything I have ever experienced and could have ever imagined! Your works are glorious! Thank You for being here for us, for your Grace and Mercy and the healing and deliverance that You give us every day, as we continue to love You because of who You are! Thank You for sending us Your Only Son Jesus Christ whose sacrifice enabled us to know You, despite everything that we have done to destroy the world that You have given to us!
Thank You for everything that You have done for me, and everything that You have done for others, and I ask that You continue to use me according to Your perfect will and perfect purposes! I can't give you more than myself, but I ask that You keep refining me as You have been and keep giving me more of You so I can keep living for You! God, I love You so much! Praise You forever and ever! I can't wait to see You one day, but while I'm here, I will go wherever You lead me! YOUR WILL BE DONE! In Jesus' name, amen!
