My original family system never was! they were never what I thought they were!
I meant nothing to these people because they are demons; and always were, heading in the direction of being possessed!
The house owners were taken long ago by satan. Im not sure the real personalities of these people ever existed. They were destroyed at early ages. Im not sure what I was dealing with except sociopaths.
I miss the house. However, now I know! I didn't before! it was all a game!
I lost nothing! I had nothing to start with but a dream and a fantasy bond of a child. and it is this fantasy bond I am attempting to grow out of! and it is working. God is growing me up out of this fantasy bond into him! Into him where it is safe! and the sun shines day n night!
The people of the house, the people of the neighborhood never had God,. it was all a lie!
I was all alone from the beginning and I never knew it! Now Im starting to see these people for what they really were! Animals!~ nothing more!
Im shocked by what Im learning! all the sacred memories are not sacred. Its all a lie! nothing was real, and nothing was permanent! nothing. no one was looking out for me! I was alone the whole time and never knew.
All those gestures and attitudes and behaviors towards me were never towards me, I was never noticed. It was all sociopathic narcism on the part of the house owners.
Ive recently been around more arrogant people, and they are suppose to be Christians? this is to much!
How or why are such shallow people hiding in Christ! It makes no sense to me!
It scares me, the kind of people that are claiming to know God! Im not sure anymore what kind of people are crawling from under the rock!
I think its people seeking power!
Anyway!
Im attempting to get over my childhood one day at a time! I get little help from others on this subject, they only think about themselves because they think they are Gods.
Lots of snags and hatred and jealously from many people. Lots n lots of arrogance! middle class entitlement! ridiculous! just demons hiding under rocks.
God is slowly moving me out of the prism that I may see clearly! and what Im seeing is beyond any thing I would have understood as a boy!
The world is full of demons and angles.. The world is demons, the world is angles..
I meant nothing to these people because they are demons; and always were, heading in the direction of being possessed!
The house owners were taken long ago by satan. Im not sure the real personalities of these people ever existed. They were destroyed at early ages. Im not sure what I was dealing with except sociopaths.
I miss the house. However, now I know! I didn't before! it was all a game!
I lost nothing! I had nothing to start with but a dream and a fantasy bond of a child. and it is this fantasy bond I am attempting to grow out of! and it is working. God is growing me up out of this fantasy bond into him! Into him where it is safe! and the sun shines day n night!
The people of the house, the people of the neighborhood never had God,. it was all a lie!
I was all alone from the beginning and I never knew it! Now Im starting to see these people for what they really were! Animals!~ nothing more!
Im shocked by what Im learning! all the sacred memories are not sacred. Its all a lie! nothing was real, and nothing was permanent! nothing. no one was looking out for me! I was alone the whole time and never knew.
All those gestures and attitudes and behaviors towards me were never towards me, I was never noticed. It was all sociopathic narcism on the part of the house owners.
Ive recently been around more arrogant people, and they are suppose to be Christians? this is to much!
How or why are such shallow people hiding in Christ! It makes no sense to me!
It scares me, the kind of people that are claiming to know God! Im not sure anymore what kind of people are crawling from under the rock!
I think its people seeking power!
Anyway!
Im attempting to get over my childhood one day at a time! I get little help from others on this subject, they only think about themselves because they think they are Gods.
Lots of snags and hatred and jealously from many people. Lots n lots of arrogance! middle class entitlement! ridiculous! just demons hiding under rocks.
God is slowly moving me out of the prism that I may see clearly! and what Im seeing is beyond any thing I would have understood as a boy!
The world is full of demons and angles.. The world is demons, the world is angles..