What is wrong with me? I don't want to destroy my body in the way that I do yet I can't stop.
Last night things just got so bad. I got back to uni yesterday and I was so glad to be back, home was driving me mad! However when I went back to my room after being with friends I just went crazy. I literally cut myself about 50 times with a razor blade. All over my body, what a mess.
I feel so numb. I used to cry about this stuff all the time but now I can't. I can't cry. The pain is immense now but that is what i wanted.
I want to ask God forgiveness for what I did but I'm not sorry. I know I'm going to end up doing it again.
Please pray for me because it is getting unbearable. I am starting to meet up with a christian counsellor next week so know I need to just hold out till then.
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Last night things just got so bad. I got back to uni yesterday and I was so glad to be back, home was driving me mad! However when I went back to my room after being with friends I just went crazy. I literally cut myself about 50 times with a razor blade. All over my body, what a mess.
I feel so numb. I used to cry about this stuff all the time but now I can't. I can't cry. The pain is immense now but that is what i wanted.
I want to ask God forgiveness for what I did but I'm not sorry. I know I'm going to end up doing it again.
Please pray for me because it is getting unbearable. I am starting to meet up with a christian counsellor next week so know I need to just hold out till then.
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