For those of you who have read my forced abortion thread, I'm glad that my mom had a change of heart with that, but I pay for it everyday (my mother is supposedly a pastor)
I constantly hear that I look bad / dead, my child will be retarded (she was just being hurtful), I am an embarassment, etc.
Everytime I try to move forward I am constantly told that I am unhappy because this is my fault (it is my fault), that I'm selfish and that she will not help me take care of my child, although I never expected her to. When I talk to my boyfriend (the father of my child), she gets so upset telling me how he will eventually leave me, then what will I do.
I pray to be forgiven, but don't believe that I am and will ever be... I deeply regret sinning in the first place.
If I don't have the support from my family, then I don't have any.
*Please pray that my child that will be born healthy in all aspects*
I constantly hear that I look bad / dead, my child will be retarded (she was just being hurtful), I am an embarassment, etc.
Everytime I try to move forward I am constantly told that I am unhappy because this is my fault (it is my fault), that I'm selfish and that she will not help me take care of my child, although I never expected her to. When I talk to my boyfriend (the father of my child), she gets so upset telling me how he will eventually leave me, then what will I do.
I pray to be forgiven, but don't believe that I am and will ever be... I deeply regret sinning in the first place.
If I don't have the support from my family, then I don't have any.
*Please pray that my child that will be born healthy in all aspects*