[COLOR=rgba(0, 0, 0, 0.701961)]I've seen a psychologist to talk about my life and she said that I've had traumatic life and I have never seen it like that. Just thought my life was somewhat normal. It's a step to share my story but here goes:
My father was abusive and my mom had left him when I was three, when he came back I didn't talk for a year. I don't remember most of my childhood. But when my dad was gone for good, since my sister was the one that got the wrath of it. Up until 16, she then abused me. Emotionally, verbally and physically. Moving around throughout my childhood and being bullied. When I was 12 years old I was in a horrible car accident where after we lost our home, family business at the time and moved to the big city. That summer before going into grade 9, I was sexually assaulted by three men in my building and the next two years at school was hell. People followed me home, threatened me if I left my house. I had stayed in the house for 3 months scared of my life and didn't want my life. I had thought about suicide but never had enough guts to do it and thought of all the family that would miss me. It was then I was introduced to inappropriate content, chat lines, and being used by guys because I was finding love in all the wrong places.
It wasn't til last past January where I was in another very traumatic car accident where I had a concussion and am still suffering from it. My mom has heard me screaming and crying in my sleep, have severe anxiety in vehicles or get upset near loud crashes or sudden movements.
My question to you is what has helped you to move on and have hope?[/COLOR]
My father was abusive and my mom had left him when I was three, when he came back I didn't talk for a year. I don't remember most of my childhood. But when my dad was gone for good, since my sister was the one that got the wrath of it. Up until 16, she then abused me. Emotionally, verbally and physically. Moving around throughout my childhood and being bullied. When I was 12 years old I was in a horrible car accident where after we lost our home, family business at the time and moved to the big city. That summer before going into grade 9, I was sexually assaulted by three men in my building and the next two years at school was hell. People followed me home, threatened me if I left my house. I had stayed in the house for 3 months scared of my life and didn't want my life. I had thought about suicide but never had enough guts to do it and thought of all the family that would miss me. It was then I was introduced to inappropriate content, chat lines, and being used by guys because I was finding love in all the wrong places.
It wasn't til last past January where I was in another very traumatic car accident where I had a concussion and am still suffering from it. My mom has heard me screaming and crying in my sleep, have severe anxiety in vehicles or get upset near loud crashes or sudden movements.
My question to you is what has helped you to move on and have hope?[/COLOR]