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Established: I have a serious depressive disorder. This time of year it always worsens, for complicated reasons, and right now it's especially brutal. My next session is Nov. 1 but I've put in a call to my psychologist and I'm waiting to hear back. I may need to go in sooner. I haven't been hospitalized for depression in a few years, but it may be a possibility this time around.
Also established: Although he has never been tested, and chooses not to be, it's possible my husband may be on the autism spectrum. He suspects so himself, and I also find reason to think it could be true.
Well, since I'm having an extremely rough time right now, and I'm barely holding it together, I needed to alert him that I've called my psychologist and I'm waiting to hear back. He was obviously busy with bill paying and record keeping, so I waited. Finally he appeared to be finished.... kind of. Mixed signals. So here's what followed.
Me: Are you finished?
Him: Yes.
But he doesn't look up, he's still shuffling papers and stuffing envelopes, and he still sort of appears to be concentrating. I know very well that he can't do two things at once, as he often reminds me, so I really need him to be actually finished before I start talking. Otherwise, he might not even remember the conversation. I wait a few more minutes, while nothing changes, and then:
Me: When you get a minute, I need your full attention, just briefly.
Him: (Doesn't say anything at all, still doesn't look up, continues shuffling papers and stuffing envelopes.)
Me: (After another short wait.) It's important.
Him: (Same nonresponse as above. Again I emphasize, he isn't even looking up from what he's doing.)
I wait still a few more minutes, then I give up and start to walk away.
Him: Well, are you going to tell me?
Me: Not now, I'm not.
Him: I'm listening. If you walk away, that's on you, not me.
But he had given me NO INDICATION whatsoever that he was listening! No looking up, no "just a minute," no "what do you need," or anything like that.
I did end up telling him. The trouble is, from this point on, I can't discuss that lapse in communication with him. I won't be able to tell him that when I'm talking to him, I need him to look up from what he's doing, and at least to acknowledge what I say with "OK," or something like that, so I know he heard me. No matter how calmly, quietly, or matter-of-factly I say it, ALL he will see is that I'm having a mental health episode again, and my thinking must be distorted, and it's nothing he did.
Is there any hope for this one?
Also established: Although he has never been tested, and chooses not to be, it's possible my husband may be on the autism spectrum. He suspects so himself, and I also find reason to think it could be true.
Well, since I'm having an extremely rough time right now, and I'm barely holding it together, I needed to alert him that I've called my psychologist and I'm waiting to hear back. He was obviously busy with bill paying and record keeping, so I waited. Finally he appeared to be finished.... kind of. Mixed signals. So here's what followed.
Me: Are you finished?
Him: Yes.
But he doesn't look up, he's still shuffling papers and stuffing envelopes, and he still sort of appears to be concentrating. I know very well that he can't do two things at once, as he often reminds me, so I really need him to be actually finished before I start talking. Otherwise, he might not even remember the conversation. I wait a few more minutes, while nothing changes, and then:
Me: When you get a minute, I need your full attention, just briefly.
Him: (Doesn't say anything at all, still doesn't look up, continues shuffling papers and stuffing envelopes.)
Me: (After another short wait.) It's important.
Him: (Same nonresponse as above. Again I emphasize, he isn't even looking up from what he's doing.)
I wait still a few more minutes, then I give up and start to walk away.
Him: Well, are you going to tell me?
Me: Not now, I'm not.
Him: I'm listening. If you walk away, that's on you, not me.
But he had given me NO INDICATION whatsoever that he was listening! No looking up, no "just a minute," no "what do you need," or anything like that.
I did end up telling him. The trouble is, from this point on, I can't discuss that lapse in communication with him. I won't be able to tell him that when I'm talking to him, I need him to look up from what he's doing, and at least to acknowledge what I say with "OK," or something like that, so I know he heard me. No matter how calmly, quietly, or matter-of-factly I say it, ALL he will see is that I'm having a mental health episode again, and my thinking must be distorted, and it's nothing he did.
Is there any hope for this one?