you can just skip by all this to after "----" if you want.
ok, so last week i wrote this:
i can see you all around me
you're weaving yourself into everything
constantly revolving around me
proving yourself true with every move
you taught the trees to sway
the rivers to run away
you created the rain to pour
penetrating to the core
your every design shouts out loud
Lord, your beauty is all around
not a single day could take part
without your mystery engraved on my heart
i cannot express the way i feel
what you've done in my life is so unreal
today i wrote this:
i want it back.
the feeling of raging fire
the feeling of burning desire
i'm so drained
it's raining so hard inside
i need to find a place to hide
i'm lost
i'm broken
countless pieces cover my floor
i'm lost
i'm hurting
so much more than ever before
i am homesick
for a place i've never been
a place where my wandering can end
i'm walking now
cause running seems so hard
please tell me you're not that far!
desperate for a voice in my ear
i'm waiting for you to feel near
can't you see i'm walking on faith
trusting that you still love me
----
what is my deal?! i'm so tired of failing my Savior! i'm so tired of feeling like i'm the most horrible daughter in the world. it was just last week i was totally loving him. but, now i can't even look towards heaven...i just bow down praying he won't strike my kneck. you'd think since he's a king and can give me all i need i'd strive to love him and be like him daily! i'm just sick of trying and then giving in and failing. but, i'm not cutting myself ever again! i made that promise 2 months ago. i have a good ol' orange bracelet to remind of it. i'm stuck in the middle of a splitting road. wrestling between what i know and what i want. i'm ashamed...
ok, so last week i wrote this:
i can see you all around me
you're weaving yourself into everything
constantly revolving around me
proving yourself true with every move
you taught the trees to sway
the rivers to run away
you created the rain to pour
penetrating to the core
your every design shouts out loud
Lord, your beauty is all around
not a single day could take part
without your mystery engraved on my heart
i cannot express the way i feel
what you've done in my life is so unreal
today i wrote this:
i want it back.
the feeling of raging fire
the feeling of burning desire
i'm so drained
it's raining so hard inside
i need to find a place to hide
i'm lost
i'm broken
countless pieces cover my floor
i'm lost
i'm hurting
so much more than ever before
i am homesick
for a place i've never been
a place where my wandering can end
i'm walking now
cause running seems so hard
please tell me you're not that far!
desperate for a voice in my ear
i'm waiting for you to feel near
can't you see i'm walking on faith
trusting that you still love me
----
what is my deal?! i'm so tired of failing my Savior! i'm so tired of feeling like i'm the most horrible daughter in the world. it was just last week i was totally loving him. but, now i can't even look towards heaven...i just bow down praying he won't strike my kneck. you'd think since he's a king and can give me all i need i'd strive to love him and be like him daily! i'm just sick of trying and then giving in and failing. but, i'm not cutting myself ever again! i made that promise 2 months ago. i have a good ol' orange bracelet to remind of it. i'm stuck in the middle of a splitting road. wrestling between what i know and what i want. i'm ashamed...